\u00deeir dyggu lesendanna sem ekki hafa \u00e1huga \u00e1 ge\u00f0r\u00e6num kvillum sleppi \u00fev\u00ed bara a\u00f0 lesa \u00feessa f\u00e6rslu … m\u00e9r dettur \u00fev\u00ed mi\u00f0ur ekki \u00ed hug neitt umfj\u00f6llunarefni anna\u00f0 og hef ekki orku \u00ed a\u00f0 b\u00f6gga neinn einstakan (\u00fe\u00f3tt ma\u00f0urinn hafi bent \u00e1 a\u00f0 blogg er b\u00f6gg, \u00ed g\u00e6rkv\u00f6ldi).<\/p>\n
\u00cd l\u00e6g\u00f0inni undanfari\u00f0 hefur kv\u00ed\u00f0i veri\u00f0 svakalega \u00e1berandi. \u00deetta \u00e1stand \u00e1 l\u00edti\u00f0 skylt vi\u00f0 \u00fea\u00f0 sem almenningur kallar kv\u00ed\u00f0a, sem er oft nettur neikv\u00e6\u00f0ur spenningur fyrir einhverju, f\u00f3lk kv\u00ed\u00f0ir fyrir, sem kalla\u00f0 er. Nei, kv\u00ed\u00f0ar\u00f6skun og ofsakv\u00ed\u00f0i er miklu l\u00edkamlegri kvilli og andstyggilegri en “kv\u00ed\u00f0a fyrir”-d\u00e6mi\u00f0. M\u00e1 t.d. nefna a\u00f0 \u00e9g hef veri\u00f0 undarlega dofin vinstra megin, fr\u00e1 h\u00f6f\u00f0i og einhvern veginn ni\u00f0ureftir skrokki, \u00ed nokkrar vikur. Dofinn er a\u00f0 gefa sig, a.m.k. hef \u00e9g \u00f6\u00f0last nokkurn veginn tilfinningu \u00ed h\u00fa\u00f0. S\u00e9 ma\u00f0ur koldofinn \u00f6\u00f0rum megin \u00ed andlitinu, finni t.d. illa klip, er \u00fea\u00f0 \u00e1v\u00edsun \u00e1 huglei\u00f0ingar um heila\u00e6xli e\u00f0a heilabl\u00f3\u00f0fall. \u00de\u00e1 ver\u00f0ur ma\u00f0ur enn kv\u00ed\u00f0nari og einkenni\u00f0 eykst. Stundum hugsa \u00e9g reyndar til \u00feess a\u00f0 \u00e9g g\u00e6ti svo sem vel fengi\u00f0 einhvern alvarlegan sj\u00fakd\u00f3m \u00e1n \u00feess a\u00f0 fatta \u00fea\u00f0 \u00fev\u00ed \u00fea\u00f0 er tilt\u00f6lulega einfalt a\u00f0 skrifa allt \u00e1 helv. kv\u00ed\u00f0areikninginn ;(\u00a0\u00a0 \u00dar \u00fev\u00ed\u00a0a\u00f0 dofa-einkenni er a\u00f0 ganga til baka er \u00e1byggilega r\u00e9tt mat ge\u00f0sj\u00faklings a\u00f0 \u00feetta var kv\u00ed\u00f0i.<\/p>\n
\u00c1 f\u00f6studagskv\u00f6ldi\u00f0 s\u00ed\u00f0asta f\u00e9kk \u00e9g svo myndarlegt kv\u00ed\u00f0akast af n\u00e1nast fullum styrkleika. \u00c9g n\u00e1\u00f0i ekki a\u00f0 sofna heldur birtist ser\u00eda af \u00e6 \u00f3ge\u00f0slegri myndum fyrir loku\u00f0um sj\u00f3nunum, hjartsl\u00e1tturinn j\u00f3kst og herpingur utan um brj\u00f3stkassann, me\u00f0 sannf\u00e6randi hjarta\u00e1fallsverk, og svita sl\u00f3 um mig alla. \u00c9g var skelfing hr\u00e6dd vi\u00f0 allt, fr\u00e1 draugum \u00far \u00fej\u00f3\u00f0s\u00f6gum upp\u00ed a\u00f0 n\u00fa v\u00e6ri \u00e9g a\u00f0 f\u00e1 hjarta\u00e1fall. (\u00deeir sem reynt hafa skilja \u00feessa klausu m\u00e6tavel, \u00e9g er ekki viss um a\u00f0 a\u00f0rir geri \u00fea\u00f0.) \u00c1 endanum f\u00f3r \u00e9g \u00e1 f\u00e6tur og t\u00f3k pillu, me\u00f0 miklum semingi \u00fev\u00ed \u00e9g er mj\u00f6g hreykin af \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 vera lyfjalaus. M\u00e1 samt spyrja sig hvort \u00fea\u00f0 s\u00e9 eitthva\u00f0 til a\u00f0 vera hreykin af? \u00deegar pillan (tilt\u00f6lulega saklaus sort, tek \u00e9g fram) f\u00f3r a\u00f0 virka og j\u00e1rnbeislin um brj\u00f3stkassann a\u00f0 gefa eftir var \u00fea\u00f0 d\u00e1samlegur l\u00e9ttir! En \u00e9g n\u00e1\u00f0i samt ekki a\u00f0 sofna fyrr en um mi\u00f0ja n\u00f3tt.<\/p>\n
Dagarnir s\u00ed\u00f0an hafa veri\u00f0 broga\u00f0ir; Anna\u00f0 hvort algert framtaksleysi, sem \u00e9g skrifa \u00e1 \u00feunglyndisreikninginn e\u00f0a skj\u00e1lfti, sviti, \u00f3gle\u00f0i og yfirli\u00f0akennd, sem passar undurvel vi\u00f0 kv\u00ed\u00f0a. Af \u00fev\u00ed \u00e9g hef slegist vi\u00f0 \u00feessa sj\u00fakd\u00f3ma, \u00feunglyndi og kv\u00ed\u00f0ar\u00f6skun, \u00ed meir en \u00e1ratug af\u00feakka \u00e9g pent \u00f3d\u00fdrar sk\u00fdringar \u00e1 bor\u00f0 vi\u00f0 gang himintungla e\u00f0a hugsanlegt breytingarskei\u00f0. S\u00f6mulei\u00f0is af\u00feakka \u00e9g r\u00e1\u00f0 \u00e1 bor\u00f0 vi\u00f0 Bowen me\u00f0fer\u00f0, TFT-me\u00f0fer\u00f0 e\u00f0a lestur b\u00f3ka sem eiga a\u00f0 gera mig enn hamingjusamari. (Var a\u00f0 skanna nokkrar s\u00ed\u00f0ur um \u00feessi efni … a\u00f0 m\u00ednu viti er \u00fearna veri\u00f0 a\u00f0 augl\u00fdsa peningaplokkun sem gefur d\u00edtox ekkert eftir.)<\/p>\n
Hva\u00f0 gerir svo ge\u00f0veik bloggynjan \u00ed \u00feessu? Ja, \u00e9g g\u00e6ti n\u00e1tt\u00farlega skipt \u00fat hveiti \u00ed spelt; hakka\u00f0 \u00ed mig gar\u00f0abr\u00fa\u00f0u, drukki\u00f0 gr\u00e6nt te, l\u00e1ti\u00f0 fitla sm\u00e1vegis vi\u00f0 mig utankl\u00e6\u00f0a, fari\u00f0 me\u00f0 nokkur ge\u00f0or\u00f0 e\u00f0a 100 x \u00e6\u00f0ruleysisb\u00e6n o.s.fr.\u00a0 \u00cd besta falli mundi \u00fea\u00f0 draga athyglina fr\u00e1 sj\u00fakd\u00f3mnum og \u00fear me\u00f0 sj\u00e1lfkrafa gera hann b\u00e6rilegri. Svo g\u00e6ti \u00e9g l\u00edka pr\u00f3fa\u00f0 sosum eins og eitt n\u00fdtt ge\u00f0lyf … sem myndi v\u00e6ntanlega fara hro\u00f0alega \u00ed mig \u00fat af neikv\u00e6\u00f0um placeb\u00f3-\u00e1hrifum (nocebo-\u00e1hrifum) og \u00e9g g\u00e6ti \u00fe\u00e1 skellt allri skuldinni \u00e1 lyfjat\u00f6kuna. Ekki a\u00f0 \u00fea\u00f0 myndi samt breyta neinu um l\u00ed\u00f0an, g\u00e6ti jafnvel gert hana verri.<\/p>\n
Sennilega er sk\u00e1st a\u00f0 gera ekki neitt anna\u00f0 en b\u00ed\u00f0a eftir a\u00f0 \u00feetta helv\u00edti l\u00ed\u00f0i fr\u00e1. \u00c9g nota n\u00e1tt\u00farlega nokkur trix sem \u00e9g hef t\u00ednt upp \u00e1 l\u00edfslei\u00f0inni, eins og a\u00f0 gera m\u00e9r vel grein fyrir hva\u00f0 \u00feetta er og reyna a\u00f0 n\u00e1 stj\u00f3rn \u00e1 \u00f6ndun e\u00f0a slaka \u00e1 me\u00f0 hverjum \u00feeim hugr\u00e6num r\u00e1\u00f0um sem gefast. \u00c9g veit a\u00f0 f\u00f3lk deyr ekki \u00far kv\u00ed\u00f0akasti, sem er au\u00f0vita\u00f0 nokkur huggun. (\u00c1 hinn b\u00f3ginn g\u00e6tu menn lent \u00ed \u00feeirri st\u00f6\u00f0u a\u00f0 sj\u00e1 enga f\u00e6ra lei\u00f0 \u00fat \u00far l\u00ed\u00f0aninni svo au\u00f0vita\u00f0 eru \u00feunglyndi og kv\u00ed\u00f0ar\u00f6skun l\u00edfsh\u00e6ttulegir sj\u00fakd\u00f3mar – \u00e9g er ekki a\u00f0 gera l\u00edti\u00f0 \u00far \u00fev\u00ed \u00fe\u00f3tt \u00e9g telji sj\u00e1lfa mig ekki \u00ed mikilli h\u00e6ttu \u00ed augnablikinu\u00a0enda hef \u00e9g gott stu\u00f0ningsnet.) \u00dea\u00f0 er n\u00e1tt\u00farlega andstyggilegt hve \u00feessi sj\u00fakd\u00f3mur brei\u00f0ist yfir s\u00edst\u00e6kkandi hluta \u00e1rsins en \u00e1 hinn b\u00f3ginn hafa alltaf komi\u00f0 g\u00f3\u00f0ir t\u00edmar \u00e1 milli. M\u00e1 hafa \u00ed bakh\u00f6ndinni a\u00f0 byrja einhvern t\u00edma aftur \u00e1 lyfjum og \u00e9g hef \u00fe\u00e1 tr\u00fa a\u00f0 s\u00e9 \u00e9g lyfjalaus um t\u00edma muni g\u00f6mul lyf reynast m\u00e9r vel \u00feegar \u00e1 \u00fearf a\u00f0 halda.<\/p>\n
\u00dea\u00f0 sem virkar s\u00e9rdeilis illa er\u00a0heilbrig\u00f0 skynsemi; \u00dea\u00f0 er ekki nokkur skynsemi f\u00f3lgin \u00ed \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 bo\u00f0efnarugl fokki upp l\u00edkamanum svo manni finnist ma\u00f0ur vera a\u00f0 deyja! Viljastyrkur virkar jafnilla \u00e1 kv\u00ed\u00f0akast og \u00e1 ni\u00f0urgang. (Hvet efasemdarmenn til a\u00f0 pr\u00f3fa n\u00e6st \u00feegar \u00feeir f\u00e1 magakveisu.) Uppgj\u00f6f virkar heldur sk\u00e1r. Sennilega virkar pillubox \u00ed sk\u00faffu einna best e\u00f0a pillur \u00ed buxnavasa; manni l\u00e9ttir ofurl\u00edti\u00f0 vi\u00f0 \u00fe\u00e1 tilhugsun a\u00f0 geta stoppa\u00f0 kasti\u00f0 ef \u00ed har\u00f0bakkann sl\u00e6r. S\u00e1 tilb\u00fani l\u00e9ttir dregur\u00a0oft \u00fea\u00f0 langt a\u00f0 ekki \u00fearf a\u00f0 taka \u00feessi lyf.<\/p>\n
Eins og lesendur vita er \u00e9g fyrir l\u00f6ngu b\u00fain a\u00f0 f\u00e1 mig fullsadda af (\u00f3)d\u00fdrum allsherjarr\u00e1\u00f0um og kvakksalver\u00ed. S\u00f6mulei\u00f0is f\u00e6 \u00e9g upp \u00ed kok \u00feegar velmeinandi vi\u00f0m\u00e6lendur fab\u00falera um a\u00f0 gu\u00f0 hafi fali\u00f0 m\u00e9r s\u00e9rstakt verkefni af \u00fev\u00ed \u00e9g s\u00e9 einmitt manneskjan sem er\u00a0f\u00e6r um a\u00f0 h\u00f6ndla \u00fea\u00f0 e\u00f0a a\u00f0 \u00e9g eigi \u00f3greidda skuld \u00far fyrra l\u00edfi (\u00fea\u00f0 er n\u00fa sjaldan sem menn \u00feora a\u00f0 skella \u00feessu s\u00ed\u00f0arnefnda framan \u00ed mig en \u00feess fleiri eru \u00e1 l\u00ednunni “gu\u00f0 spl\u00e6sir verkefnum eins og neikv\u00e6\u00f0u s\u00e6lg\u00e6ti”). Svo ekki s\u00e9 tala\u00f0 um \u00fe\u00e1 sta\u00f0h\u00e6fingu a\u00f0 \u00feessa l\u00ed\u00f0an hafi \u00e9g vali\u00f0 sj\u00e1lf og s\u00e9 \u00fear me\u00f0 \u00e1byrg fyrir henni. (Yfirleitt eru r\u00f6kin \u00e1 \u00fe\u00e1 lei\u00f0 a\u00f0 s\u00e9rhver geti vali\u00f0 a\u00f0 “lifa \u00ed k\u00e6rleika e\u00f0a \u00f3tta” og \u00e9g hafi \u00fe\u00e1 sums\u00e9 vali\u00f0 \u00f3ttann!\u00a0 Hv\u00edl\u00edkt bull – en f\u00f3lk sem er veikt \u00e1 ge\u00f0i er skiljanlega \u00fatsett fyrir sl\u00edkan neikv\u00e6\u00f0an k\u00e6rleiksbo\u00f0skap og ekki \u00f3l\u00edklegt a\u00f0 svona \u00e1r\u00f3\u00f0ur \u00fdti verulega veiku f\u00f3lki fram \u00e1 ystu br\u00fan \u00fev\u00ed f\u00f3lki er talin tr\u00fa um a\u00f0 \u00fea\u00f0 sj\u00e1lft hafi vali\u00f0 rangt og n\u00e1nast \u00fatsk\u00fafa\u00f0 sj\u00e1lfu s\u00e9r, kannski af \u00fev\u00ed \u00fea\u00f0 er svo illa innr\u00e6tt?)<\/p>\n
Nei, \u00e9g\u00a0\u00e1l\u00edt a\u00f0 \u00e9g hafi\u00a0erft \u00feetta bo\u00f0efnarugl \u00ed heila alveg eins og \u00e9g erf\u00f0i \u00fatst\u00e6\u00f0 eyru og v\u00edsit\u00e6r sem eru lengri en st\u00f3rut\u00e6r. (Er doldi\u00f0 \u00f3s\u00e1tt vi\u00f0 hvort\u00a0tveggja \ud83d\ude09 ) \u00a0Vi\u00f0 erf\u00f0um er ekkert a\u00f0 gera. Aftur \u00e1 m\u00f3ti get \u00e9g reynt a\u00f0 beita skynsemi \u00ed \u00fev\u00ed hvernig \u00e9g tekst \u00e1 vi\u00f0 \u00feunglyndi og kv\u00ed\u00f0a e\u00f0a \u00feeirri erfi\u00f0u \u00e1kv\u00f6r\u00f0un a\u00f0 stundum s\u00e9 best a\u00f0 gefast upp fyrir \u00feessu og reyna einna helst a\u00f0 s\u00fdna langlundarge\u00f0.<\/p>\n
P.s. M\u00e9r til upplyftingar segir yngri sonurinn reglulega, \u00feegar \u00e9g er veik: “Hefur\u00f0u pr\u00f3fa\u00f0 a\u00f0\u00a0fara \u00fat a\u00f0 labba?” \u00deessu fylgir glott. Drengurinn veit vel a\u00f0 labbit\u00farar gera stundum illt verra, a.m.k. \u00feegar ma\u00f0ur er \u00ed alv\u00f6ru veikur (pr\u00f3fi\u00f0 einnig labbit\u00far gegn ni\u00f0urgangi!) og \u00e6fir \u00fev\u00ed m\u00f3\u00f0urina \u00ed pirrandi misskildum r\u00e1\u00f0um \ud83d\ude09<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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