{"id":279,"date":"2010-09-14T11:40:13","date_gmt":"2010-09-14T11:40:13","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/harpa.blogg.is\/2010-09-14\/tleg-thessa-dagana\/"},"modified":"2010-09-14T11:40:13","modified_gmt":"2010-09-14T11:40:13","slug":"tleg-thessa-dagana","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/harpahreins.com\/blogg\/2010\/09\/14\/tleg-thessa-dagana\/","title":{"rendered":"T….leg \u00feessa dagana"},"content":{"rendered":"

\u00c9g er b\u00fain a\u00f0 vera eitthva\u00f0 \u00f3n\u00f3g sj\u00e1lfri m\u00e9r undanfarna daga. Raufarhafnska or\u00f0i\u00f0 l\u00fdsir \u00feessu best en kona \u00e1 m\u00ednum aldri \u00feorir n\u00e1tt\u00farlega ekki a\u00f0 nota \u00fea\u00f0.<\/p>\n

\u00ddmiss konar sannf\u00e6randi pestareinkenni hrj\u00e1 mig, t.d. k\u00f6lduflog, hitaflog, magaverkur, h\u00f6fu\u00f0verkur o.s.fr. \u00deetta er sosum ekkert illv\u00edgt – hefur oft veri\u00f0 miklu verra. M\u00e9r er lj\u00f3st a\u00f0 \u00fea\u00f0 er kv\u00ed\u00f0i sem er a\u00f0 m\u00e9r. Kv\u00ed\u00f0aeinkenni eru nefnilega gasalega l\u00edk flensueinkennum. Nema \u00feegar hann magnast upp \u00ed ofsakv\u00ed\u00f0a; \u00fe\u00e1 kemur nokkurs konar generalprufa af hjarta\u00e1falli.<\/p>\n

\u00c9g hef aldrei skili\u00f0 \u00feau skrauthv\u00f6rf yfir \u00feunglyndi e\u00f0a kv\u00ed\u00f0a sem finna m\u00e1 \u00ed sk\u00e1ldskap (“Bak vi\u00f0 mig b\u00ed\u00f0ur dau\u00f0inn” – f\u00edlingurinn). L\u00edkamleg einkenni\u00a0\u00feessara sj\u00fakd\u00f3ma \u00a0eru hvunndagsleg og \u00f3r\u00f3mant\u00edsk. (Raunar hef \u00e9g aldrei gripi\u00f0 \u00fe\u00e1 hugmynd a\u00f0 \u00fea\u00f0 s\u00e9 eitthva\u00f0 r\u00f3mant\u00edskt yfirh\u00f6fu\u00f0 vi\u00f0 sj\u00fakd\u00f3ma … hv\u00edta dau\u00f0a me\u00f0talinn.) \u00c1 sama m\u00e1ta finnst m\u00e9r \u00f3smekklegt \u00feegar menn, jafnvel sk\u00e1ld, gera s\u00e9r \u00feann leik a\u00f0 gera l\u00edti\u00f0 \u00far ge\u00f0sj\u00fakd\u00f3mum, t.d. me\u00f0 \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 stimpla hvern \u00feann ge\u00f0veikan\u00a0sem hefur a\u00f0ra sko\u00f0un \u00e1 \u00e1lversbyggingum e\u00f0a\u00a0alls kyns umsvifum en \u00feeir.\u00a0(“\u00dea\u00f0 er ge\u00f0veiki a\u00f0 t\u00edfalda bankakerfi \u00e1 sj\u00f6 \u00e1rum” … “H\u00e9rlendis er fjalla\u00f0 um sturlun sem norm, jafnvel l\u00edfsnau\u00f0syn og \u00e6\u00f0i er \u00e6\u00f0sta dygg\u00f0in …”) Gr\u00e6ningjar sem telja sig vinstrisinna\u00f0a vini al\u00fe\u00fd\u00f0unnar eru s\u00e9rlega sl\u00e6mir me\u00f0 \u00feetta. N\u00e6stverstir eru\u00a0\u00e6stir n\u00e1grannar sem \u00feykjast eiga harma a\u00f0 hefna.\u00a0Raunar er upphafning og ni\u00f0url\u00e6ging ge\u00f0sj\u00fakd\u00f3ma jafn pirrandi fyrir \u00feann sem haldinn er sl\u00edkum sj\u00fakd\u00f3mi. \u00cd n\u00faverandi \u00e1standi er \u00e9g \u00feess vegna jafnpirru\u00f0 \u00fat\u00ed li\u00f0i\u00f0 me\u00f0 silfurskei\u00f0ina \u00ed kjaftinum og frenjurnar \u00e1 moggabloggunum. Lei\u00f0i J\u00f3hann s\u00e1luga Sigurj\u00f3nsson hj\u00e1 m\u00e9r.<\/p>\n

En sem sagt … \u00e9g hef \u00fea\u00f0 ekki n\u00f3gu gott \u00ed augnablikinu. \u00dea\u00f0 kristalla\u00f0ist hj\u00e1 tannl\u00e6kninum \u00ed s\u00ed\u00f0ustu viku – \u00fer\u00e1tt fyrir a\u00f0 \u00e9g t\u00e6ki sk\u00fdrt fram a\u00f0 ekki m\u00e6tti snerta \u00f3deyf\u00f0a t\u00f6nn snerti hann h\u00e1lfdofna t\u00f6nn og kom vi\u00f0 \u00fe\u00e1 \u00f3dofnu vi\u00f0 hli\u00f0ina. \u00deetta var n\u00f3g til a\u00f0 sannf\u00e6randi byrjun \u00e1 ofsakv\u00ed\u00f0akasti ger\u00f0i vart vi\u00f0 sig. (Vel a\u00f0 merkja \u00fearf a\u00f0eins a\u00f0 hreinsa tennurnar en \u00fea\u00f0 er ekki h\u00e6gt nema \u00e9g s\u00e9 koldeyf\u00f0! Merkilegt nokk er \u00e9g ekkert hr\u00e6dd vi\u00f0 sprautur og finnst deyfingin a\u00f0eins \u00f3\u00fe\u00e6gileg. \u00deetta er mj\u00f6g s\u00e9rt\u00e6kur kv\u00ed\u00f0i!) Normal lesanda finnst \u00feetta eflaust yfirm\u00e1ta hyster\u00eda \u00ed m\u00e9r. En m\u00e1li\u00f0 er a\u00f0 kv\u00ed\u00f0ar\u00f6skun er fullkomlega \u00f3r\u00f6kr\u00e9ttur sj\u00fakd\u00f3mur og hefur ekkert me\u00f0 sj\u00e1lfstj\u00f3rn, skynsemi e\u00f0a almennan kjark a\u00f0 gera. \u00deess vegna er h\u00fan sj\u00fakd\u00f3mur. Ef svona kv\u00ed\u00f0i v\u00e6ri eitthvert e\u00f0lilegt fyrirb\u00e6ri og sj\u00faklingurinn g\u00e6ti bara unni\u00f0 bug \u00e1 honum me\u00f0 \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 her\u00f0a sig upp v\u00e6ri hann n\u00e1tt\u00farlega ekki sj\u00fakd\u00f3mur. \u00c9g var\u00f0 frekar f\u00fal vi\u00f0 \u00feennan ind\u00e6la tannl\u00e6kni, fannst a\u00f0 hann t\u00e6ki ekki n\u00f3gu miki\u00f0 mark \u00e1 m\u00e9r. Au\u00f0vita\u00f0 veit \u00e9g ekkert um tannl\u00e6kningar.\u00a0En af langri (og \u00f3\u00e6skilegri reynslu) er \u00e9g s\u00e9rfr\u00e6\u00f0ingur \u00ed eigin kv\u00ed\u00f0a og veit vel a\u00f0 beri\u00a0eitthva\u00f0 \u00fat af \u00ed tannl\u00e6knaheims\u00f3knum getur \u00fea\u00f0 au\u00f0veldlega or\u00f0i\u00f0 til \u00feess a\u00f0 \u00e9g\u00a0\u00fer\u00f3i svo mikla tannl\u00e6knaf\u00f3b\u00edu a\u00f0 \u00e9g komist ekki til tannl\u00e6knis. \u00deess vegna \u00e1 a\u00f0 taka fullt mark \u00e1 m\u00e9r.<\/p>\n

Svo \u00e1kva\u00f0 \u00e9g a\u00f0 \u00e6fa mig \u00ed leikh\u00fasi \u00e1 sunnudaginn. \u00dea\u00f0 gekk lj\u00f3mandi vel enda seti\u00f0 vi\u00f0 bor\u00f0 en ekki\u00a0\u00ed s\u00e6tar\u00f6\u00f0. (J\u00e1, \u00fea\u00f0 breytir\u00a0\u00f3tr\u00falega miklu fyrir mig.) Aftur \u00e1 m\u00f3ti lei\u00f0 m\u00e9r eins og \u00e9g v\u00e6ri me\u00f0 40 stiga hita allan sunnudagsmorguninn og fram a\u00f0 leiks\u00fdningunni, laust eftir h\u00e1degi\u00f0. Fyrirkv\u00ed\u00f0inn fyrir hugsanlegu ofsakv\u00ed\u00f0akasti er n\u00e6stum eins sl\u00e6mur og kasti\u00f0 sj\u00e1lft.<\/p>\n

\u00dea\u00f0 er \u00ed sj\u00e1lfu s\u00e9r gott skref a\u00f0 vi\u00f0urkenna vandam\u00e1li\u00f0 og gera s\u00e9r grein fyrir \u00fev\u00ed. \u00c9g geri m\u00e9r l\u00edka m\u00e6tavel grein fyrir \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 helv. kv\u00ed\u00f0inn er svona \u00e1berandi n\u00fana af \u00fev\u00ed \u00e9g er svo g\u00f3\u00f0 af \u00feunglyndinu. \u00deunglyndi hefur nefnilega \u00feann eiginleika a\u00f0 brei\u00f0ast yfir allar tilfinningar og frysta mann svo ein \u00feunglynd kona ver\u00f0ur a\u00f0 Morra, til s\u00e1lar og l\u00edkama. \u00deannig s\u00e9\u00f0 er \u00fea\u00f0 sosum kostur a\u00f0 finna fyrir kv\u00ed\u00f0a, s\u00fdnir a\u00f0 \u00e9g er ekki Morri \u00ed augnablikinu.<\/p>\n

A\u00f0alm\u00e1li\u00f0 er samt a\u00f0 finna \u00fat hvernig ma\u00f0ur geti breytt \u00e1standinu. Og \u00fea\u00f0 er sko hreint ekki au\u00f0velt. Kv\u00ed\u00f0astillandi lyf draga langt en m\u00e9r finnst \u00fereytandi hva\u00f0 lyfi\u00f0 mitt virkar \u00e1 minni og einbeitingu svo \u00e9g tek ekki sl\u00edkt nema \u00e9g ney\u00f0ist til. Hugr\u00e6nu atferlistrixin sem \u00e9g l\u00e6r\u00f0i \u00e1 kv\u00ed\u00f0an\u00e1mskei\u00f0inu \u00ed vor virka l\u00edka en \u00feau virka ekki n\u00f3g. \u00d3hef\u00f0bundnari r\u00e1\u00f0, t.d. \u00a0a\u00f0 hlusta \u00e1 r\u00e1s 1 (\u00fear sem menn eru yfirleitt frekar r\u00f3legir, vitsmunalegir og spila almennilega t\u00f3nlist) og sauma \u00fat \u00e1 me\u00f0an virka l\u00edka. Sl\u00f6kunar\u00e6fingar fyrir svefninn eru f\u00ednar en \u00e9g n\u00e6 yfirleitt aldrei neinum sl\u00f6kunarf\u00edling a\u00f0 degi til, \u00fer\u00e1tt fyrir g\u00f3\u00f0an \u00e1setning og \u00e6fingar. Reglusamt l\u00edf (fara \u00e1 f\u00e6tur, skipta deginum \u00ed b\u00fata, hafa eitthvert plan fyrir hvern dag, helst a\u00f0 fara eitthva\u00f0 \u00fat og hreyfa sig o.s.fr.) virkar l\u00edka, sl\u00e6r t.d. eitthva\u00f0\u00a0\u00e1 \u00feeytivindu hugsana sem fylgja kv\u00ed\u00f0anum. M\u00e9r s\u00fdnist a\u00f0 \u00e9g \u00feyrfti a\u00f0 \u00e6fa mig a\u00f0 sitja \u00ed s\u00e6milega st\u00f3rri byggingu, \u00ed st\u00f3lar\u00f6\u00f0, og \u00fe\u00e1 eru messur n\u00e1tt\u00farlega upplag\u00f0ar (og algerlega \u00f3keypis, einnig fyrir hei\u00f0ingjana, svo sem r\u00e6kilega hefur komi\u00f0 fram \u00ed umfj\u00f6llun presta \u00ed fj\u00f6lmi\u00f0lum undanfari\u00f0). Fyrir nokkrum \u00e1rum br\u00faka\u00f0i \u00e9g einmitt \u00feetta r\u00e1\u00f0 og haf\u00f0i gott af. N\u00fana \u00fearf \u00e9g a\u00f0 yfirst\u00edga einhvern s\u00e1lr\u00e6nan \u00fer\u00f6skuld til a\u00f0 f\u00e1 mig \u00ed \u00feesslags \u00e6fingar en \u00fea\u00f0 tekst sj\u00e1lfsagt.<\/p>\n

\u00cd dag er \u00e9g a\u00f0 hugsa um a\u00f0 nota r\u00e1sar 1 trixi\u00f0, leyfa m\u00e9r a\u00f0 leggja mig (og ey\u00f0ileggja \u00feannig reglusemi dagsins) og reykja mig bl\u00e1a (s\u00f6mulei\u00f0is alger r\u00fastun reglusemi). Spl\u00e6si \u00e1 mig h\u00e1lfri Rivotril og gef sk\u00edt \u00ed sk\u00fdra hugsun og minni. \u00c1 \u00fea\u00f0 skili\u00f0. Viskum sj\u00e1 hversu langt \u00feetta dregur.<\/p>\n

—<\/p>\n

\u00deessi f\u00e6rsla er \u00f3sk\u00e1ldleg me\u00f0 afbrig\u00f0um. H\u00fan hefur engan bo\u00f0skap og engan tilgang nema \u00feann a\u00f0 koma skipulagi \u00e1 \u00f3rei\u00f0una \u00ed hausnum \u00e1 m\u00e9r. En \u00e9g hef komist a\u00f0 \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 blogg mitt um eigin ge\u00f0veiki, lummulegt sem \u00fea\u00f0 kann a\u00f0 vera, vir\u00f0ist hj\u00e1lpa \u00f6\u00f0rum \u00ed s\u00f6mu st\u00f6\u00f0u. \u00dea\u00f0 er alltaf gott a\u00f0 vera ekki einn \u00ed heiminum. Og \u00fe\u00f3tt tilgangur svona f\u00e6rslu s\u00e9\u00a0fyrst og fremst a\u00f0\u00a0l\u00e9tta \u00e1 eigin s\u00e1larkirnum \u00fe\u00e1 \u00feykir m\u00e9r v\u00e6nt um ef h\u00fan getur hj\u00e1lpa\u00f0 \u00f6\u00f0rum. Enn gle\u00f0ilegra v\u00e6ri ef \u00feessi skrif opnu\u00f0u augu einhverra \u00feeirra sem vilja hafa ge\u00f0veiki \u00ed flimtingum og finnst sl\u00edkt sni\u00f0ugt. \u00dea\u00f0 er nefnilega vo\u00f0alega \u00f3sni\u00f0ugt og l\u00edti\u00f0 skemmtilegt a\u00f0 vera ge\u00f0veikur.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

\u00c9g er b\u00fain a\u00f0 vera eitthva\u00f0 \u00f3n\u00f3g sj\u00e1lfri m\u00e9r undanfarna daga. Raufarhafnska or\u00f0i\u00f0 l\u00fdsir \u00feessu best en kona \u00e1 m\u00ednum aldri \u00feorir n\u00e1tt\u00farlega ekki a\u00f0 nota \u00fea\u00f0. \u00ddmiss konar sannf\u00e6randi pestareinkenni hrj\u00e1 mig, t.d. k\u00f6lduflog, …<\/span> Read More …<\/span><\/a><\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"nf_dc_page":"","_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-279","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/harpahreins.com\/blogg\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/279","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/harpahreins.com\/blogg\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/harpahreins.com\/blogg\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/harpahreins.com\/blogg\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/harpahreins.com\/blogg\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=279"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/harpahreins.com\/blogg\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/279\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/harpahreins.com\/blogg\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=279"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/harpahreins.com\/blogg\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=279"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/harpahreins.com\/blogg\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=279"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}