\u00c9g stefni hra\u00f0byri inn \u00ed \u00feetta “s\u00fdnilega myrkur”, svo \u00e9g vitni n\u00fa \u00ed titil b\u00f3kar Strykers, sem \u00e9g var afskaplega hrifin af. Undanfarnar vikur hefur halla\u00f0 undan f\u00e6ti. Ekki svo a\u00f0 skilja a\u00f0 \u00e9g hafi n\u00e1\u00f0 neinum s\u00e9rst\u00f6kum bata\u00a0af \u00fev\u00ed \u00feunglyndiskasti sem h\u00f3fst \u00ed septemberlok. \u00c9g komst a\u00f0 v\u00edsu \u00fat \u00far algeru gr\u00e6nmetis\u00e1standi upp \u00far \u00e1ram\u00f3tum en er flesta daga \u00f6rmagna af svefnleysi (aukaverkun af lyfinu sem \u00e9g tek og vil n\u00fa h\u00e6tta a\u00f0 taka), l\u00e1gum bl\u00f3\u00f0\u00fer\u00fdstingi dau\u00f0ans (l\u00edka aukaverkun) og \u00feunglyndi (sem lyfi\u00f0 vir\u00f0ist virka l\u00edtt \u00e1). \u00c9g n\u00e1\u00f0i meira a\u00f0 segja a\u00f0 koma m\u00e9r upp einni sko\u00f0un (\u00e1 \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 TR og a\u00f0rir sem l\u00edtill\u00e6kka ge\u00f0sj\u00faka,\u00a0t.d. heimilisl\u00e6knar e\u00f0a \u00feeir sem\u00a0gefa sig \u00fat fyrir a\u00f0 vera talsmenn ge\u00f0sj\u00fakra, \u00e6ttu a\u00f0 skammast s\u00edn) en \u00ed dag hef \u00e9g ekki einu sinni sko\u00f0un \u00e1 \u00fev\u00ed og hugsa bara “fari \u00feeir og veri”.<\/p>\n
R\u00e1\u00f0i\u00f0 sem \u00e9g hef nota\u00f0 undanfari\u00f0 er a\u00f0 s\u00f6kkva m\u00e9r r\u00e6kilega ofan \u00ed eitthva\u00f0 vi\u00f0fangsefni, a\u00f0allega si\u00f0blindu, einelti og prj\u00f3nas\u00f6gu, til a\u00f0 for\u00f0ast a\u00f0 f\u00e1 t\u00f3m til a\u00f0 hugsa \u00fev\u00ed \u00fe\u00e1 fl\u00f6gra illar hugsanir og tilfinningar um heilab\u00fai\u00f0. Samt finnst m\u00e9r lei\u00f0inlegt hva\u00f0 \u00e9g er minnislaus og hva\u00f0 allt tekur mig \u00f3skaplega langan t\u00edma, mi\u00f0a\u00f0 vi\u00f0 hvernig \u00e9g var \u00e1\u00f0ur en veikindin ur\u00f0u alvarleg. Upplifi mig svol\u00edti\u00f0 sem heilaskemmda e\u00f0a me\u00f0 Alzheimer.<\/p>\n
\u00cd dag er plani\u00f0 a\u00f0 komast \u00e1 f\u00e6tur, \u00fe.e. kl\u00e6\u00f0a sig. Aukalega hef \u00e9g \u00feau markmi\u00f0 a\u00f0 hringja \u00e1 \u00dej\u00f3\u00f0arb\u00f3khl\u00f6\u00f0u og a\u00f0 fara yfir g\u00f6tuna og lj\u00f3srita \u00e1 b\u00f3kasafninu \u00e1 m\u00ednum gamla vinnusta\u00f0. Enn aukalegar er a\u00f0 komast \u00fat \u00ed b\u00fa\u00f0 og kaupa s\u00edgarettur. \u00c9g hugsa a\u00f0 fyrsta markmi\u00f0i\u00f0 n\u00e1ist en veit ekki me\u00f0 hin \u00ferj\u00fa. \u00dea\u00f0 stefnir allt \u00ed a\u00f0 ma\u00f0urinn ver\u00f0i aftur a\u00f0 taka yfir heimilisst\u00f6rfin \u00f6ll, eigandi \u00feennan kramaraumingja fyrir konu.<\/p>\n
L\u00e6knirinn vi\u00f0ra\u00f0i n\u00fdtt plan \u00ed g\u00e6r (hefur reyndar minnst \u00e1 \u00fea\u00f0 \u00e1\u00f0ur). \u00dea\u00f0 felst \u00ed a\u00f0 h\u00e6tta \u00e1 Marplan og hefja t\u00f6ku \u00e1 tveimur lyfjum saman. \u00deessi tv\u00f6 lyf ger\u00f0u gagn \u00e1 s\u00ednum t\u00edma en anna\u00f0 missti virknina sm\u00e1m saman \u00fer\u00e1tt fyrir a\u00f0 lyfjaskammtur v\u00e6ri h\u00e6kka\u00f0ur og h\u00e6kka\u00f0ur og var loks kominn upp \u00far \u00f6llu valdi (reyndar h\u00e9lst aukaverkunin matarf\u00edkn og \u00e9g hef aldrei veri\u00f0 feitari og fallegri en me\u00f0an \u00e9g var \u00e1 \u00fev\u00ed lyfinu). Hitt sn\u00f6ggh\u00e6tti a\u00f0 virka \u00ed september. Plani\u00f0 felst sem sagt \u00ed a\u00f0 hefja n\u00fdjan hring \u00ed lyfjafl\u00f3runni. \u00c9g er ekkert s\u00e9rstaklega bjarts\u00fdn \u00e1 a\u00f0 \u00fea\u00f0 virki. Auk \u00feess \u00fearf \u00e9g a\u00f0 vera lyfjalaus um einhvern t\u00edma me\u00f0an Marplani\u00f0 sjatlast \u00far kroppnum. \u00dea\u00f0 eru ekki beinl\u00ednis huggulegar framt\u00ed\u00f0arhorfur me\u00f0an \u00e9g er svona veik.<\/p>\n
Mi\u00f0a\u00f0 vi\u00f0 veturinn \u00ed fyrra og \u00fea\u00f0 sem af er \u00feessum vetri vir\u00f0ist \u00feunglyndi\u00f0 fara d\u00fdpkandi me\u00f0 \u00e1runum og k\u00f6stin teygja sig yfir \u00e6 st\u00e6rri hluta \u00e1rsins. \u00dea\u00f0 borgar sig\u00a0ekki a\u00f0 hugsa um \u00fea\u00f0. Rifja frekar upp alla n\u00fdtilega AA-frasa og hanga \u00e1 \u00feeim. L\u00edklega ver\u00f0 \u00e9g a\u00f0 fara a\u00f0 hlusta \u00e1 kirkjut\u00f3nlist aftur, Bach n\u00fdtist nefnilega \u00e1 \u00feunglyndi.<\/p>\n
Kl\u00e6\u00f0a sig og hringja (vonandi tekst m\u00e9r a\u00f0 sl\u00e1 \u00e1 r\u00e9ttar t\u00f6lur \u00e1 s\u00edmanum \u00ed fyrsta og tala s\u00ed\u00f0an \u00ed hann) er fyrst \u00e1 dagskr\u00e1 – best a\u00f0 vinda s\u00e9r \u00ed \u00fea\u00f0.<\/p>\n
P.S. Skilabo\u00f0 til lesenda: Ef menn vilja senda einhverjum sl\u00f3\u00f0 \u00e1 einstakar f\u00e6rslur \u00ed \u00feessu bloggi er best a\u00f0 smella \u00e1 titil f\u00e6rslunnar (sem er lj\u00f3sgr\u00e6nn) og \u00fe\u00e1 birtist varanleg sl\u00f3\u00f0 akk\u00farat \u00feeirrar f\u00e6rslu \u00ed sl\u00f3\u00f0arglugga vafrans. \u00c9g hef t.d. or\u00f0i\u00f0 v\u00f6r vi\u00f0 a\u00f0 einhverjir vilja deila f\u00e6rslunni um sk\u00f3lastj\u00f3ra sem leggja kennara \u00ed einelti, sem gle\u00f0ur mig \u00fev\u00ed \u00e9g held a\u00f0 \u00feetta s\u00e9 \u00fearft innlegg\u00a0\u00ed sk\u00f3lam\u00e1laumr\u00e6\u00f0u, og \u00fe\u00e1 er best a\u00f0\u00a0senda varanlegu sl\u00f3\u00f0 f\u00e6rslunnar \u00fev\u00ed h\u00fan\u00a0f\u00e6rist vitaskuld ne\u00f0ar \u00e1 blogginu sj\u00e1lfu eftir \u00fev\u00ed sem \u00e9g b\u00e6ti vi\u00f0 \u00f6\u00f0rum f\u00e6rslum. Reyndar kemur h\u00fan og a\u00f0rar f\u00e6rslur (t.d. um si\u00f0blindu\u00a0e\u00f0a\u00a0v\u00edsindi um s\u00f6gulega tilur\u00f0 \u00edslensku lopapeysunnar) au\u00f0veldlega upp \u00ed Google og \u00e9g s\u00e9 a\u00f0 margir n\u00e1lgast efni\u00f0 \u00fea\u00f0an.<\/p>\n
\u00c9g hef b\u00fai\u00f0 til s\u00e9rstakan flokk fyrir si\u00f0blindu (sj\u00e1 lista yfir flokka til h\u00e6gri \u00ed glugganum). M\u00e9r er fengur \u00ed athugasemdum og lei\u00f0r\u00e9ttingum \u00fev\u00ed endanlega ver\u00f0ur \u00feessu efni komi\u00f0 fyrir \u00e1 vef og v\u00e6ri \u00fe\u00e1 gott fyrir mig a\u00f0\u00a0geta lei\u00f0r\u00e9tt \u00fea\u00f0 og\u00a0b\u00e6ta. Kosturinn vi\u00f0 a\u00f0 birta efni \u00e1 bloggi jafn\u00f3\u00f0um og vinnunni vindur fram er a\u00f0 ma\u00f0ur hefur a\u00f0gang a\u00f0 m\u00f6rgum yfirlesurum – \u00feetta er hi\u00f0 eina sanna “peer review” \ud83d\ude42\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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