\u00c9g hef ekki geta\u00f0 blogga\u00f0 um nokkurt skei\u00f0 vegna \u00feunglyndis. Raunar hef \u00e9g veri\u00f0 ansi veik \u00ed meir en \u00e1r n\u00fana \u00e1n hl\u00e9s en sl\u00edkt hefur ekki gerst \u00e1\u00f0ur. \u00d6ll lyfjar\u00e1\u00f0 eru fullpr\u00f3fu\u00f0, sem og rafl\u00e6kningar, n\u00e1lastungur o.fl. HAM me\u00f0fer\u00f0 sem \u00e9g s\u00f3tti \u00ed fyrravor n\u00fdttist pr\u00fd\u00f0ilega til a\u00f0 f\u00e1st vi\u00f0 kv\u00ed\u00f0a og \u00e9g nota \u00fe\u00e6r a\u00f0fer\u00f0ir sem \u00e9g l\u00e6r\u00f0i \u00fear enn \u00feann dag \u00ed dag, \u00feegar \u00fearf en raunar leggst \u00feunglyndi\u00f0 yfir kv\u00ed\u00f0ann svo \u00e9g f\u00e6 yfirleitt ekki ofsakv\u00ed\u00f0ak\u00f6st e\u00f0a\u00a0einkenni almennrar kv\u00ed\u00f0ar\u00f6skunar\u00a0nema \u00e9g s\u00e9 s\u00e6milega fr\u00edsk af \u00feunglyndi. HAM virkar hins vegar ekki baun \u00e1 \u00feunglyndi\u00f0.<\/p>\n
Fyrir sk\u00f6mmu \u00e1kva\u00f0 \u00e9g a\u00f0 pr\u00f3fa n\u00fdtt r\u00e1\u00f0 og f\u00f3r \u00ed s\u00f3larlandafer\u00f0. \u00c9g f\u00f3r til Kr\u00edtar, \u00ed fimmta sinn, dvaldi \u00e1 sta\u00f0 sem \u00e9g gj\u00f6r\u00feekki, \u00ed kompan\u00edi vi\u00f0 ind\u00e6la danska ellil\u00edfeyris\u00feega, \u00e1 r\u00f3legum sl\u00f3\u00f0um og himnesku ve\u00f0ri. \u00dea\u00f0 kom ekki \u00ed veg fyrir a\u00f0 \u00e1 \u00feri\u00f0ja degi dvalarinnar f\u00e9kk \u00e9g sl\u00e6mt \u00feunglyndiskast, sem versna\u00f0i og versna\u00f0i uns svo var komi\u00f0 a\u00f0 \u00e9g s\u00e1 a\u00f0 anna\u00f0 hvort yr\u00f0i \u00e9g a\u00f0 leggja allt undir til a\u00f0 komast heim e\u00f0a reikna me\u00f0 a\u00f0 koma heim \u00ed kistu. M\u00e9r t\u00f3kst a\u00f0 breyta mi\u00f0unum og stytti fer\u00f0ina um viku. Ni\u00f0ursta\u00f0an var s\u00fa a\u00f0 s\u00f3l og hiti virkar ekki til b\u00f3ta\u00a0\u00e1 mitt \u00feunglyndi og \u00fear me\u00f0 er s\u00fa a\u00f0fer\u00f0 einnig pr\u00f3fu\u00f0. A\u00f0 v\u00edsu kom fram merkileg breyting sem \u00e9g hef aldrei \u00e1\u00f0ur upplifa\u00f0: S\u00f3larhringsferli l\u00ed\u00f0anar sn\u00e9rist \u00e1 hvolf! \u00c9g sn\u00fd \u00f6fugt vi\u00f0 flesta \u00feunglyndissj\u00faklinga a\u00f0 \u00fev\u00ed leytinu a\u00f0 m\u00e9r l\u00ed\u00f0ur sk\u00e1st \u00e1 morgnana og verst seinni part dags og \u00e1 kv\u00f6ldin. \u00c1 Kr\u00edt var\u00f0 \u00feetta \u00f6fugt, morgnar og framyfir mi\u00f0jan dag voru helv\u00edti en kv\u00f6ldin sk\u00e1st. Umsn\u00faningur yfir \u00ed venjulegt horf t\u00f3k nokkra daga eftir heimkomu.<\/p>\n
S\u00ed\u00f0ar \u00e6tla \u00e9g a\u00f0 reyna a\u00f0 l\u00fdsa d\u00e6miger\u00f0ri l\u00ed\u00f0an \u00ed dj\u00fapu \u00feunglyndi eins og \u00e9g lifi \u00ed n\u00fana en l\u00e6t \u00fea\u00f0 b\u00ed\u00f0a a\u00f0 sinni.<\/p>\n
\u00c9g hef fylgst undanfari\u00f0 me\u00f0 bloggi Steind\u00f3rs J. Erlingssonar, Huglei\u00f0ingar um l\u00edfi\u00f0 og tilveruna<\/a>, en hann hefur upp \u00e1 s\u00ed\u00f0kasti\u00f0 veri\u00f0 duglegur a\u00f0 blogga um eigi\u00f0 \u00feunglyndi, lyf og ge\u00f0l\u00e6kna. Steind\u00f3r skrifar vel og \u00fea\u00f0 er margt merkilegt sem hann segir, a.m.k. hefur margt vaki\u00f0 mig til umhugsunar og m\u00e9r \u00fe\u00f3tti hans eigin reynslusaga afar vel s\u00f6g\u00f0 og \u00e1hugaver\u00f0 enda erum vi\u00f0 l\u00edklega a\u00f0 gl\u00edma vi\u00f0 sama e\u00f0a svipa\u00f0an sj\u00fakd\u00f3m og h\u00f6fum um margt reynslu af s\u00f6mu l\u00e6knisr\u00e1\u00f0um og s\u00f6mu heilbrig\u00f0isstofnunum. En vi\u00f0 erum, s\u00fdnist m\u00e9r, algerlega \u00f3samm\u00e1la um ni\u00f0urst\u00f6\u00f0urnar af \u00feessari l\u00edfsreynslu og \u00feeirri \u00feekkingu sem vi\u00f0 h\u00f6fum afla\u00f0 okkur.<\/p>\n \u00cd n\u00e6stu f\u00e6rslum \u00e6tla \u00e9g a\u00f0 velta \u00fev\u00ed fyrir m\u00e9r hvernig geti sta\u00f0i\u00f0 \u00e1 \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 vi\u00f0 Steind\u00f3r h\u00f6fum komist a\u00f0 svo \u00f3l\u00edkri ni\u00f0urst\u00f6\u00f0u \u00fer\u00e1tt fyrir a\u00f0 m\u00f6rgu leyti svipa\u00f0a reynslu.<\/p>\n \u00c9g held a\u00f0 eitt sem g\u00e6ti \u00fatsk\u00fdrt \u00feessar mismunandi ni\u00f0urst\u00f6\u00f0ur s\u00e9 misg\u00f6mul reynsla okkar beggja af \u00e1fengisme\u00f0fer\u00f0. \u00c9g f\u00f3r \u00ed sl\u00edka me\u00f0fer\u00f0 vori\u00f0 1989 og hef stunda\u00f0 AA fundi allar g\u00f6tur s\u00ed\u00f0an. \u00c1 \u00feeim t\u00edma var \u00e9g mj\u00f6g \u00feunglynd, haf\u00f0i sk\u00f6mmu \u00e1\u00f0ur fengi\u00f0 greininguna “skammdegis\u00feunglyndi” hj\u00e1 ge\u00f0l\u00e6kni og t\u00f3k henni fagnandi \u00fev\u00ed \u00e9g gat a\u00f0 hluta afsaka\u00f0 drykkju me\u00f0 henni. \u00deegar \u00e9g horfi um \u00f6xl hef \u00e9g l\u00edklega veri\u00f0 me\u00f0 kv\u00ed\u00f0araskanir og \u00feunglyndiseinkenni fr\u00e1 unglings\u00e1rum en er af \u00feeirri kynsl\u00f3\u00f0 a\u00f0 sl\u00edkt var ekki vi\u00f0urkennt og auk \u00feess alin upp vi\u00f0 a\u00f0 menn eigi alltaf a\u00f0 harka af s\u00e9r og l\u00e1ta ekki eins og aumingjar. (\u00c9g get sosum ekki s\u00e9\u00f0 a\u00f0 \u00feau vi\u00f0horf og uppeldi sem \u00fe\u00e1 t\u00ed\u00f0ku\u00f0ust skipti\u00a0neinu m\u00e1li fyrir mig \u00ed dag, \u00feetta var almennt vi\u00f0horf og \u00e9g er l\u00f6ngu b\u00fain a\u00f0 gera upp fort\u00ed\u00f0ina.) \u00c1fengisme\u00f0fer\u00f0in og veran \u00ed AA breytti mj\u00f6g miklu \u00ed l\u00edfi m\u00ednu og l\u00ed\u00f0an. \u00dea\u00f0 er au\u00f0vita\u00f0 auglj\u00f3st a\u00f0 bara \u00fea\u00f0 a\u00f0 losna vi\u00f0 hi\u00f0 d\u00e6miger\u00f0a alka\u00feunglyndi er mikil frelsun og AA eru st\u00f3rkostleg mannr\u00e6ktarsamt\u00f6k. \u00c9g valdi m\u00e9r ekki \u00fea\u00f0 hlutskipti a\u00f0 ver\u00f0a alk\u00f3h\u00f3listi, l\u00edt svo \u00e1 a\u00f0 \u00fea\u00f0 s\u00e9 arfgengur sj\u00fakd\u00f3mur sem \u00e9g get ekki bori\u00f0 \u00e1byrg\u00f0 \u00e1 (og til l\u00edtils a\u00f0 fara a\u00f0 kenna einhverjum langfe\u00f0gum e\u00f0a langm\u00e6\u00f0rum um r\u00f6ng gen). \u00c9g ber hins vegar \u00e1byrg\u00f0 \u00e1 lausninni, \u00fe.e. a\u00f0 f\u00e1st vi\u00f0 sj\u00fakd\u00f3minn, sem er a\u00f0allega f\u00f3lgi\u00f0 \u00ed \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 s\u00e6kja fundi.<\/p>\n Svo f\u00e9kk \u00e9g n\u00edu nokku\u00f0 g\u00f3\u00f0 \u00e1r eftir \u00e1fengisme\u00f0fer\u00f0ina og gat \u00fatsk\u00fdrt ni\u00f0ursveiflur me\u00f0 s\u00ed\u00f0hv\u00f6rfum e\u00f0a hafa ekki unni\u00f0 n\u00f3gu vel \u00ed m\u00ednum m\u00e1lum e\u00f0a me\u00f0 \u00f6\u00f0rum alkaklisjum.\u00a0Svo veiktist\u00a0\u00e9g illa, f\u00f3r \u00e1 br\u00e1\u00f0am\u00f3tt\u00f6ku ge\u00f0deildar og var samstundis l\u00f6g\u00f0 inn. S\u00ed\u00f0an hefur sj\u00fakd\u00f3murinn versna\u00f0 me\u00f0 hverju \u00e1rinu. \u00c9g vann eins lengi og \u00e9g gat, var komin \u00ed skert starfshlutfall, var b\u00fain a\u00f0 leggja \u00f6ll skemmtilegu aukast\u00f6rfin \u00e1 hilluna en loks var svo komi\u00f0 a\u00f0 \u00e9g var\u00f0 \u00f3vinnuf\u00e6r me\u00f0 \u00f6llu, \u00ed desember 2009. Eftir langt veikindaleyfi, \u00fear sem \u00e9g h\u00e9lt dau\u00f0ahaldi \u00ed vonina um a\u00f0 geta sn\u00fai\u00f0 aftur til starfa, \u00fe\u00f3tt ekki v\u00e6ri nema \u00ed p\u00ednul\u00edti\u00f0 hlutastarf, var \u00e9g metin 100% \u00f6ryrki og eins og sta\u00f0an er \u00ed dag er ekki \u00ed sj\u00f3nm\u00e1li a\u00f0 \u00e9g geti unni\u00f0 nokkurn skapa\u00f0an hlut. N\u00e1m, t\u00f3mstundastarf e\u00f0a anna\u00f0 \u00feess h\u00e1ttar er l\u00edka \u00fat \u00far myndinni.<\/p>\n \u00dea\u00f0 er talsvert styttra s\u00ed\u00f0an Steind\u00f3r J. Erlingsson f\u00f3r \u00ed \u00fe\u00e1 \u00e1fengisme\u00f0fer\u00f0 sem skila\u00f0i honum \u00e1rangri og e.t.v. vara \u00feau hughrif og frelsi\u00f0 undan alka\u00feunglyndinu enn\u00fe\u00e1 honum til betri l\u00ed\u00f0anar. Hugsanlega m\u00f3tast vi\u00f0horf hans einnig af \u00fev\u00ed sem ma\u00f0ur l\u00e6rir \u00ed sl\u00edkri me\u00f0fer\u00f0, s\u00e1 l\u00e6rd\u00f3mur var m\u00e9r a.m.k. ofarlega \u00ed huga lengi eftir me\u00f0fer\u00f0ina. \u00dea\u00f0 m\u00e1 segja a\u00f0 \u00e9g hafi tr\u00faa\u00f0 kennisetningum S\u00c1\u00c1 meira og minna allt til \u00feess a\u00f0 \u00e9g var\u00f0 svo veik vori\u00f0 1998 a\u00f0 \u00e9g gat n\u00e1nast ekki tala\u00f0 og upplif\u00f0i ofsakv\u00ed\u00f0ak\u00f6st me\u00f0 tilheyrandi andnau\u00f0 \u00ed fyrstu sinnin, a.m.k. svo \u00e9g muni. \u00de\u00e1 hringdi \u00e9g n\u00e1tt\u00farlega fyrst \u00e1 Vog, f\u00e9kk a\u00f0 tala vi\u00f0 l\u00e6kni, sag\u00f0i honum hva\u00f0 \u00e9g hef\u00f0i veri\u00f0 lengi edr\u00fa, l\u00fdsti svo l\u00ed\u00f0an minni stamandi fyrir honum \u00ed s\u00edmann og ma\u00f0urinn sag\u00f0i: “Iss, \u00feetta eru bara s\u00ed\u00f0hv\u00f6rf – komdu inn \u00e1 Vog og \u00fe\u00fa ver\u00f0ur farin a\u00f0 hl\u00e6ja a\u00f0 \u00feessu eftir tvo daga!” Hef\u00f0i \u00e9g fari\u00f0 a\u00f0 r\u00e1\u00f0um Einars l\u00e6knis \u00e1 Vogi v\u00e6ri \u00e9g ekki ofar moldu \u00ed dag. Sem betur fer var ma\u00f0urinn minn ekki jafn heila\u00feveginn og \u00e9g (vi\u00f0 Steind\u00f3r eigum \u00fea\u00f0 sameiginlegt a\u00f0 eiga fr\u00e1b\u00e6ra maka) og keyr\u00f0i mig \u00e1 br\u00e1\u00f0am\u00f3tt\u00f6ku ge\u00f0deildar.<\/p>\n En sem sagt: M\u00f6gulega getur mismunandi tr\u00fa okkar Steind\u00f3rs \u00e1 fr\u00e6\u00f0i \u00feau sem S\u00c1\u00c1 bo\u00f0ar sk\u00fdrt a\u00f0 einhverju leyti mismunandi ni\u00f0urst\u00f6\u00f0ur okkar um ge\u00f0lyf og ge\u00f0l\u00e6kna. Og m\u00f6gulega stafar mismunandi tr\u00faarsannf\u00e6ringin af mismunandi l\u00f6ngum t\u00edma sem li\u00f0inn er fr\u00e1 \u00e1fengisme\u00f0fer\u00f0 og \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 \u00feekking og vi\u00f0horf m\u00f3tast \u00e1 mj\u00f6g l\u00f6ngum t\u00edma innan AA samtakanna. M\u00e6tti segja a\u00f0 eftir \u00fev\u00ed sem ma\u00f0ur stundar \u00feau samt\u00f6k lengur og kynnist fleira f\u00f3lki sem n\u00fdtir s\u00e9r fj\u00f6lbreyttari a\u00f0fer\u00f0ir til a\u00f0 axla \u00e1byrg\u00f0ina \u00e1 sj\u00fakd\u00f3mnum alk\u00f3h\u00f3lisma ver\u00f0i ma\u00f0ur v\u00ed\u00f0s\u00fdnni og taki ekki alveg eins miki\u00f0 mark \u00e1 “mainstream” hugmyndafr\u00e6\u00f0inni sem er bo\u00f0u\u00f0 \u00ed me\u00f0fer\u00f0 og eftirme\u00f0fer\u00f0arstarfi. (\u00deetta \u00e1 kannski einkum vi\u00f0 um S\u00c1\u00c1 en \u00e9g hef \u00fe\u00f3 grun um a\u00f0 svipa\u00f0 s\u00e9 uppi \u00e1 teningnum \u00e1 Teigi.)<\/p>\n —<\/p>\n Til a\u00f0 sl\u00fatta umfj\u00f6llun \u00ed bili vil \u00e9g gera athugasemd vi\u00f0 n\u00fdjustu f\u00e6rslu Steind\u00f3rs, “Enn um varasama ge\u00f0l\u00e6kna<\/a>” \u00fear sem hann heldur \u00fev\u00ed fram a\u00f0 hann hafi vitneskju um ge\u00f0l\u00e6kni sem beinl\u00ednis banni sj\u00faklingi s\u00ednum a\u00f0 pr\u00f3fa HAM-me\u00f0fer\u00f0. \u00c9g \u00e1 afar b\u00e1gt me\u00f0 a\u00f0 tr\u00faa \u00feessu fyrir svo utan \u00fea\u00f0 a\u00f0 sj\u00faklingurinn \u00fearf au\u00f0vita\u00f0 ekker leyfi l\u00e6knisins til a\u00f0 skr\u00e1 sig \u00ed hugr\u00e6na atferlisme\u00f0fer\u00f0 fremur en hann \u00feyrfti l\u00e6knisleyfi til a\u00f0 skr\u00e1 sig \u00ed Boot Camp e\u00f0a j\u00f3ga-n\u00e1mskei\u00f0 e\u00f0a prj\u00f3nan\u00e1mskei\u00f0\u00a0e\u00f0a hva\u00f0 anna\u00f0 sem hann teldi a\u00f0 g\u00e6ti gagnast s\u00e9r til betri l\u00ed\u00f0anar. Ef Steind\u00f3r fer ekki \u00fearna me\u00f0 fleipur er full \u00e1st\u00e6\u00f0a til a\u00f0 l\u00e1ta Ge\u00f0l\u00e6knaf\u00e9lagi\u00f0 vita af \u00feessum ge\u00f0l\u00e6kni (en draga m\u00e1 \u00fe\u00e1 \u00e1lyktun af f\u00e6rslunni a\u00f0 l\u00e6knirinn starfi \u00e1 \u00cdslandi) og a\u00f0 hann banni HAM<\/strong>. En er ekki l\u00edklegra a\u00f0 umr\u00e6ddur ge\u00f0l\u00e6knir hafi r\u00e1\u00f0lagt<\/strong> sj\u00faklingnum a\u00f0 l\u00e1ta HAM eiga sig \u00ed bili og byggi \u00fea\u00f0 \u00e1 l\u00e6knisfr\u00e6\u00f0ilegum forsendum? Stundum eru sj\u00faklingar nefnilega svo veikir a\u00f0 \u00fea\u00f0 borgar sig fyrir \u00fe\u00e1 a\u00f0 fara s\u00e9r h\u00e6gt og for\u00f0ast \u00e1reynslu, sem HAM-me\u00f0fer\u00f0 \u00f3neitanlega er (h\u00fan krefst \u00feess a\u00f0 sj\u00faklingur leggi sitt af m\u00f6rkum, annars virkar h\u00fan ekki).<\/p>\n \u00a0\u00a0<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" \u00c9g hef ekki geta\u00f0 blogga\u00f0 um nokkurt skei\u00f0 vegna \u00feunglyndis. 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