Fyrir um m\u00e1nu\u00f0i s\u00ed\u00f0an f\u00f3r \u00e9g yfir sj\u00fakrask\u00fdrslurnar um mig og setti uppl\u00fdsingar \u00far \u00feeim upp \u00ed s\u00e6milega skipulega t\u00f6flu. \u00c1st\u00e6\u00f0an var fyrst og fremst s\u00fa a\u00f0 undanfarinn \u00e1ratugur er fyrir m\u00e9r \u00ed svarta\u00feoku og \u00e9g vildi gl\u00f6ggva mig \u00e1 gangi sj\u00fakd\u00f3msins (\u00feunglyndisins) og l\u00e6knisa\u00f0fer\u00f0um. \u00deegar \u00e9g leit yfir t\u00f6fluna a\u00f0 verki loknu f\u00e9llust m\u00e9r n\u00e1nast hendur. \u00c9g reikna me\u00f0 a\u00f0 gera a\u00f0 einhverju leyti upp ni\u00f0urst\u00f6\u00f0urnar \u00e1 \u00feessu bloggi en \u00fea\u00f0 ver\u00f0ur brotakennd yfirfer\u00f0 enda er fort\u00ed\u00f0in mj\u00f6g \u00ed \u00f3minni.<\/p>\n
Rau\u00f0i \u00fer\u00e1\u00f0urinn er lyfjagj\u00f6f sem \u00e1 stundum er \u00ed algeru \u00f3h\u00f3fi og \u00e1 stundum gersamlega \u00f3skiljanleg \u00ed lj\u00f3si sj\u00fakd\u00f3msgreiningar. Raunar kemur einnig vi\u00f0 s\u00f6gu undarleg sj\u00fakd\u00f3msgreining \u00e1 t\u00edmabili en \u00e9g fjalla ekki um hana a\u00f0 sinni – h\u00fan var v\u00e6ntanlega t\u00edskufyrirbrig\u00f0i \u00ed ge\u00f0l\u00e6knisfr\u00e6\u00f0um \u00e1 \u00feeim t\u00edma alveg eins og \u00e9g held a\u00f0 sum lyfin hafi fremur stj\u00f3rnast af t\u00edsku \/ stefnum og straumum en a\u00f0 hafi veri\u00f0 eitthvert vit \u00ed a\u00f0 gefa \u00feau. E\u00f0a bara tilraun \u00fat \u00ed bl\u00e1inn (t.d. er m\u00e9r algerlega \u00f3skiljanlegt af hverju pr\u00f3fa\u00f0 var a\u00f0 gefa m\u00e9r Rital\u00edn \u00ed einni ge\u00f0deildardv\u00f6linni – er Rital\u00edn \u00feunglyndislyf? \u00deeirri tilraun var sj\u00e1lfh\u00e6tt \u00fev\u00ed \u00e9g \u00feoldi alls ekki lyfi\u00f0.) \u00deessi f\u00e6rsla er l\u00edklega helst skiljanleg \u00feeim sem hafa kynnst ge\u00f0lyfjum … en \u00feeir eru n\u00e1tt\u00farlega mj\u00f6g margir \u00fev\u00ed \u00fea\u00f0 er einbeitt tr\u00fa ge\u00f0l\u00e6kna og margra annarra a\u00f0 “lyfjakokteillinn eini” s\u00e9 r\u00e9tt handan vi\u00f0 horni\u00f0 og um a\u00f0 gera a\u00f0 blanda og hrista sem oftast: Fyrr e\u00f0a s\u00ed\u00f0ar hitti menn \u00e1 kokteilinn eina sanna. Og sj\u00faklingurinn l\u00e6knist af s\u00ednum kvilla.<\/p>\n
Topparnir \u00ed skefjalausri lyfjagj\u00f6finni eru\u00a0\u00e1 vormisseri\u00a02007 og 2009.<\/p>\n
\u00cd jan\u00faar 2007 var \u00e9g \u00ed n\u00e1msleyfi og stunda\u00f0i fullt n\u00e1m vi\u00f0 H\u00cd, til a\u00f0 kl\u00e1ra MA-gr\u00e1\u00f0u.\u00a0 \u00cd \u00feri\u00f0ju viku jan\u00faar vir\u00f0ist m\u00e9r fara eitthva\u00f0 a\u00f0 versna og lyfjagj\u00f6f er aukin og \u00ed lok jan\u00faar er \u00feref\u00f6ldum dagskammti af \u00feunglyndislyfinu sem \u00e9g var \u00e1 (90 mg af M\u00edron) k\u00fapla\u00f0 \u00fat \u00e1 tveimur vikum og anna\u00f0 \u00feunglyndislyf sett inn \u00ed sta\u00f0inn, greiningu breytt \u00far me\u00f0al\u00feungri\u00a0\u00ed\u00a0dj\u00fapa ge\u00f0l\u00e6g\u00f0. Sj\u00fakd\u00f3msgreiningin var ge\u00f0hvarfas\u00fdki (bipolar)\u00a0en m\u00f6gulega\u00a0var \u00e1tt vi\u00f0 bipolar II,\u00a0\u00fe.e. “ge\u00f0hvarfas\u00fdki \u00e1n ge\u00f0h\u00e6\u00f0arkasta\/man\u00edu”. A.m.k. var sj\u00fakd\u00f3msgreiningin bipolar II \u00feegar m\u00e9r var sagt fr\u00e1 \u00feessari bipolar-greiningu sem var eitthva\u00f0 seinna a\u00f0 \u00e9g held.\u00a0\u00cd jan\u00faar 2007\u00a0\u00e1 \u00e9g a\u00f0 taka:<\/p>\n
Af \u00feessum lyfjakokteil batna\u00f0i m\u00e9r ekki baun. Mig minnir a\u00f0 \u00e9g hafi sagt mig \u00far einum k\u00farsi (og fengi\u00f0 metnar inn \u00fe\u00e6r einingar \u00far M.Paed gr\u00e1\u00f0unni, gamlar cand.mag einingar) en t\u00f3kst a\u00f0 lj\u00faka \u00f6\u00f0rum og skrifa MA-ritger\u00f0 \u00fe\u00f3tt alla \u00f6nnina s\u00e9 \u00e9g sj\u00fakd\u00f3msgreind me\u00f0 alvarlega ge\u00f0l\u00e6g\u00f0 og auk \u00feess stj\u00f6rf af \u00feessum skemmtilega kokteil (sem var a\u00f0eins minnka\u00f0ur \u00e1 n\u00e6stu m\u00e1nu\u00f0um enda hef \u00e9g aldrei \u00feola\u00f0 Litarex \u00ed \u00feessu magni og l\u00edklega ekki heldur Solian). Strax eftir a\u00f0 \u00e9g haf\u00f0i skila\u00f0 ritger\u00f0inni f\u00f3r \u00e9g \u00ed rafl\u00e6kningar (11 raflost h\u00f3fust seint \u00ed apr\u00edl og var stu\u00f0a\u00f0 \u00ferisvar \u00ed viku sem venja er). M\u00e9r f\u00f3r svo a\u00f0 batna eitthva\u00f0 \u00ed j\u00fal\u00ed og hef\u00f0i sennilega eitthva\u00f0 batna\u00f0 hvort sem er. Raunar er haft eftir m\u00e9r \u00ed\u00a0seint \u00ed okt\u00f3ber a\u00f0 \u00e9g hafi aldrei jafna\u00f0 mig eftir\u00a0“lotuna \u00ed vor”.<\/p>\n
R\u00famum tveimur \u00e1rum s\u00ed\u00f0ar\u00a0hef \u00e9g veri\u00f0 \u00ed 75% starfi lengi, \u00fer\u00e1tt fyrir lyfjakokteilinn, sem var hristur og hr\u00e6r\u00f0ur \u00far mismunandi tegundum \u00e1 \u00feessum \u00e1rum. K\u00edkjum \u00e1 kokteilinn \u00ed\u00a0byjun mars 2009 (\u00e9g er enn me\u00f0 greininguna ge\u00f0hvarfas\u00fdki\/bipolar og talin\u00a0\u00ed v\u00e6gri\u00a0e\u00f0a me\u00f0al\u00feungri ge\u00f0l\u00e6g\u00f0):<\/p>\n
\u00cd sj\u00fakrask\u00fdrslu kemur fram a\u00f0 r\u00e6tt s\u00e9 um \u00e1rei\u00f0anleika bipolar II greiningar og a\u00f0 \u00e9g “telji” mig \u00feurfa a\u00f0 sofa miki\u00f0. M\u00e9r vir\u00f0ist hafa tekist a\u00f0 kl\u00e1ra \u00f6nnina, \u00fe.e. vera \u00ed 75% kennslu. \u00deegar \u00e9g veikist n\u00e6st alvarlega, \u00ed okt\u00f3ber 2009, er sj\u00fakd\u00f3msgreiningunni breytt\u00a0\u00ed einp\u00f3la \u00feunglyndi og hefur veri\u00f0 \u00fea\u00f0 s\u00ed\u00f0an.\u00a0<\/p>\n
\u00c1 eigin bloggi hef \u00e9g skr\u00e1\u00f0 eil\u00edti\u00f0 um l\u00ed\u00f0anina \u00e1 \u00f6llum \u00feessum lyfjum \u00e1 vor\u00f6nn 2009:<\/p>\n
18. mars 2009:\u00a0<\/p>\n
Viti\u00f0 \u00fei\u00f0 hva\u00f0 er verst vi\u00f0 a\u00f0 skj\u00e1lfa eins og espilauf (minnir mig \u00e1 a\u00f0 \u00e9g hef alltaf \u00e6tla\u00f0 a\u00f0 t\u00e9kka \u00e1 hvort \u00feetta s\u00e9 sama og asparlauf\u2026)?\u00a0 \u00dea\u00f0 er a\u00f0 reyna a\u00f0 f\u00e1 s\u00e9r vatnssopa \u00far glasi fyrir framan nemendur! Eftir h\u00e1degi \u00ed dag var \u00e9g alveg b\u00fain a\u00f0 kl\u00e1ra batter\u00edin og skalf fr\u00e1 hnakka og ni\u00f0ur\u00far. Svo var \u00e9g a\u00f0 reyna \u00feetta me\u00f0 b\u00e1\u00f0um h\u00f6ndum \u00e1 plastglasi (passa a\u00f0 kremja ekki glasi\u00f0) og hitta \u00e1 munninn og n\u00e1 a\u00f0 s\u00fapa \u00e1 \u00fer\u00e1tt fyrir munnherkjur.\u00a0\u00c9g sag\u00f0i svo vandr\u00e6\u00f0alega vi\u00f0 blessu\u00f0 b\u00f6rnin a\u00f0 \u00e9g v\u00e6ri ekki \u00ed \u00feynnku og blessu\u00f0\u00a0b\u00f6rnin voru svo kurteis a\u00f0 hl\u00e6gja me\u00f0 m\u00e9r nett a\u00f0 \u00feeim obsk\u00fara m\u00f6guleika. Best \u00e9g venji mig \u00e1 a\u00f0 sn\u00faa baki vi\u00f0 nemendum \u00feegar svona stendur \u00e1.<\/p><\/blockquote>\n
30. mars 2009:<\/p>\n
Kl. 6 \u00ed morgun \u00e1kva\u00f0 \u00e9g a\u00f0 n\u00fdta morguns\u00e1ri\u00f0 til a\u00f0 taka ni\u00f0ur \u00fevott og brj\u00f3ta saman. \u00c1rrisul h\u00fasfreyja getur komi\u00f0 \u00fdmsu \u00ed verk, skal \u00e9g segja ykkur. En ekki t\u00f3kst betur til en svo a\u00f0\u00a0\u00e9g hrasa\u00f0i um (t\u00e6knilega galla\u00f0an og asnalegan) \u00fer\u00f6skuldinn\u00a0\u00e1 lei\u00f0inni \u00fevottah\u00fas-eldh\u00fas. Verandi me\u00f0 fullt fangi\u00f0 af \u00fevotti datt \u00e9g \u00e1 andliti\u00f0, sem\u00a0betur fer vinstri vangann. \u00deetta var helv\u00edti vont og \u00e9g er fyrst n\u00fana, um kv\u00f6ldi\u00f0, a\u00f0 f\u00e1 tilfinningu \u00ed tennur og varir – hefur li\u00f0i\u00f0 eins og \u00e9g k\u00e6mi koldofin fr\u00e1 tannl\u00e6kni \u00ed allan dag. Svo ver\u00f0ur spennandi a\u00f0 sj\u00e1 hversu gul, bl\u00e1 og marin \u00e9g ver\u00f0 og hva\u00f0 geta spunnist skemmtilegar kjaftas\u00f6gur \u00fat fr\u00e1 \u00fev\u00ed! (Ekki er til b\u00f3ta a\u00f0 \u00e9g er a\u00f0 kenna unglingunum\u00a0Grafar\u00fe\u00f6gn<\/em>\u00a0\u2026 hvar kona er barin eins og har\u00f0fiskur og ber \u00feess merki.)<\/p><\/blockquote>\n
(\u00c9g er b\u00fain a\u00f0 detta beint \u00e1 hnakkann, \u00e1 b\u00edlast\u00e6\u00f0i sk\u00f3lans, aftur fyrir mig \u00e1 olnbogann um mi\u00f0ja n\u00f3tt h\u00e9rna heima\u00a0– hann b\u00f3lgna\u00f0i ansi miki\u00f0 og a.m.k. \u00ferisvar \u00ed stiganum \u00ed sk\u00f3lanum. Er or\u00f0in lei\u00f0 \u00e1 detti\u00e6fingum!)<\/p><\/blockquote>\n
12. apr\u00edl 2009:\u00a0\u00a0<\/p>\n
Svolei\u00f0is a\u00f0 af hverju var \u00e9g l\u00e1tin taka \u00feetta Seroquel \u00f3ge\u00f0 \u00e1rum saman? Lyfi\u00f0 er svo sefandi a\u00f0 ma\u00f0ur druslast um h\u00e1lfdrukkna\u00f0ur \u00ed h\u00e1lfu kafi. \u00dea\u00f0 er t.d. ofbo\u00f0slega erfitt a\u00f0 labba upp stiga. (\u00c9g er b\u00fain a\u00f0\u00a0p\u00e6la \u00ed \u00fev\u00ed \u00ed nokkur \u00e1r hva\u00f0a lyf ylli \u00feessum stigavandr\u00e6\u00f0um, sem og dettingum \u00ed stiga – og v\u00ed\u00f0ar – n\u00fa er \u00e9g b\u00fain a\u00f0 finna \u00fea\u00f0!) \u00c9g myndi fagna uppl\u00fdsingum um tv\u00edblinda ranns\u00f3kn \u00e1 fullfr\u00edsku f\u00f3lki og \u00e1hrifum \u00feess a\u00f0 taka 300 mg Seroquel \u00ed svona tvo \u00e1r. \u00c1tti f\u00f3lki\u00f0 erfi\u00f0ara me\u00f0 stiga? Var \u00fea\u00f0 t\u00falka\u00f0 sem lyfleysu\u00e1hrif?<\/p>\n
\u00c9g vona svo a\u00f0 helv\u00edtis kippirnir, svipa\u00f0 og manni s\u00e9 gefinn selbiti, gangi til baka flj\u00f3tlega.<\/p><\/blockquote>\n
Og svo hvernig er a\u00f0 h\u00e6tta \u00e1 lyfjas\u00fapunni:<\/p>\n
26. apr\u00edl 2009:<\/p>\n
\u00deetta eru mikilv\u00e6gustu \u00farslit helgarinnar \u00e1 m\u00ednu heimili! \u00dea\u00f0 versta er b\u00fai\u00f0 (2 fyrstu n\u00e6turnar og seinnipartar daga) og \u00ed lok n\u00e6stu viku ver\u00f0ur eins og \u00e9g hafi aldrei snert \u00e1 Seroqueli. \u00dear l\u00fdkur 9 vikna tr\u00f6ppun! H\u00e1rlosi\u00f0, sem var b\u00fai\u00f0 a\u00f0 gefa \u00ed skyn a\u00f0 v\u00e6ri \u00edmyndun \u00ed m\u00e9r, er h\u00e6tt; ba\u00f0keri\u00f0\u00a0og h\u00e1rburstar ekki lengur \u00fatb\u00eda\u00f0 \u00ed h\u00e1rum en hins vegar fullt af illh\u00e6rum \u00ed vinstra kollviki, sem bendir til a\u00f0 litla g\u00f3\u00f0a h\u00e1ri\u00f0 s\u00e9 einmitt a\u00f0 fara a\u00f0 vaxa \u00fear!<\/p>\n
N\u00e6st sn\u00faum vi\u00f0 okkur a\u00f0 L\u00edt\u00edum-\u00f3ge\u00f0inu en \u00e9g hef ekki tr\u00fa \u00e1 a\u00f0 \u00fea\u00f0 ver\u00f0i eins erfitt; mun \u00fe\u00f3 v\u00e6ntanlega gle\u00f0jast yfir a\u00f0 geta safna\u00f0 n\u00f6glum sem l\u00edta \u00fat eins og neglur en ekki b\u00e1ruj\u00e1rn. (\u00deetta er \u00f3skr\u00e1\u00f0 aukaverkun af Litarex og \u00fev\u00ed gef-\u00ed-skyn-\u00edmyndun m\u00edn, svona stundum alla vega.)\u00a0 \u00c9g hugsa a\u00f0 \u00e9g l\u00e1ti Litarexi\u00f0 b\u00ed\u00f0a fram undir n\u00e6stu helgi. \u00dear erum vi\u00f0 a\u00f0 tala um tv\u00e6r tr\u00f6ppur. Og n\u00e6st \u2026 sj\u00e1um til!<\/p><\/blockquote>\n
\u00deetta er \u00e1g\u00e6tt \u00ed bili. \u00c9g held v\u00e6ntanlega \u00e1fram \u00ed \u00feessari sporavinnu \u00e1 \u00feessu m\u00ednu bloggi til a\u00f0 gl\u00f6ggva sj\u00e1lfa mig betur \u00e1 eigin sj\u00fakd\u00f3mi og l\u00e6kningatilraunum \u00ed meir en \u00e1ratug. \u00c1rangurinn af \u00feeim stanslausum tilraunum bygg\u00f0um \u00e1 v\u00edsindalegum ranns\u00f3knum (a\u00f0 s\u00f6gn) er a\u00f0 \u00e9g er 100% \u00f6ryrki. V\u00e6ri \u00e9g kannski 200% \u00f6ryrki ef \u00e9g hef\u00f0i ekki veri\u00f0 svo “heppin” a\u00f0 f\u00e1 \u00f6tula \u00fej\u00f3nustu \u00ed ge\u00f0heilbrig\u00f0iskerfi r\u00edkisins?<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Fyrir um m\u00e1nu\u00f0i s\u00ed\u00f0an f\u00f3r \u00e9g yfir sj\u00fakrask\u00fdrslurnar um mig og setti uppl\u00fdsingar \u00far \u00feeim upp \u00ed s\u00e6milega skipulega t\u00f6flu. \u00c1st\u00e6\u00f0an var fyrst og fremst s\u00fa a\u00f0 undanfarinn \u00e1ratugur er fyrir m\u00e9r \u00ed svarta\u00feoku og …<\/span> Read More …<\/span><\/a><\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"nf_dc_page":"","_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[11,25],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-412","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-gedlyf","category-thunglyndid"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/harpahreins.com\/blogg\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/412","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/harpahreins.com\/blogg\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/harpahreins.com\/blogg\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/harpahreins.com\/blogg\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/harpahreins.com\/blogg\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=412"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/harpahreins.com\/blogg\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/412\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":673,"href":"https:\/\/harpahreins.com\/blogg\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/412\/revisions\/673"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/harpahreins.com\/blogg\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=412"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/harpahreins.com\/blogg\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=412"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/harpahreins.com\/blogg\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=412"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}