Eftir a\u00f0 hafa veri\u00f0 laus vi\u00f0 Rivotril \u00ed \u00ferj\u00e1r vikur byrja\u00f0i \u00e9g a\u00f0 trappa ni\u00f0ur Imovane (zopiklon), \u00fe.e. svefnlyfi\u00f0 sem \u00e9g hef teki\u00f0 a\u00f0 sta\u00f0aldri. \u00de\u00e1 t\u00f3k ekki betra vi\u00f0! \u00c9g er b\u00fain a\u00f0 taka eina t\u00f6flu (7,5 mg) \u00ed nokkra m\u00e1nu\u00f0i og h\u00e9lt \u00fea\u00f0 yr\u00f0i l\u00edti\u00f0 m\u00e1l a\u00f0 helminga skammtinn, hef oft gert \u00fea\u00f0 \u00e1\u00f0ur en \u00fe\u00e1 \u00e6vinlega veri\u00f0 a\u00f0 taka Rivotril einnig. \u00c1 \u00f6\u00f0rum degi var\u00f0 \u00e9g helv\u00edti veik; fannst eins og h\u00f6fu\u00f0i\u00f0 v\u00e6ri \u00ed skr\u00fafstykki, ekkert bl\u00f3\u00f0 \u00ed h\u00f6f\u00f0inu \u00e1 m\u00e9r, gat hvorki legi\u00f0, seti\u00f0 n\u00e9 sta\u00f0i\u00f0 o.s.fr. Og a\u00f0 sj\u00e1lfs\u00f6g\u00f0u fylltist \u00e9g kv\u00ed\u00f0a yfir a\u00f0 vera a\u00f0 deyja af \u00fev\u00ed m\u00e9r lei\u00f0 eins og \u00e9g v\u00e6ri a\u00f0 deyja og tilhugsunin ger\u00f0i l\u00ed\u00f0anina enn skelfilegri svo m\u00e9r fannst \u00e9g \u00f6rugglega vera a\u00f0 deyja \ud83d\ude09\u00a0 \u00deegar f\u00e6turnir voru farnir a\u00f0\u00a0skj\u00e1lfa stj\u00f3rnlaust undir m\u00e9r gafst \u00e9g upp og t\u00f3k h\u00e1lfa Rivotril. \u00dear me\u00f0 hef \u00e9g \u00f6\u00f0last reynsluna af \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 falla, til \u00feessa hefur fallreynsla m\u00edn einskor\u00f0ast vi\u00f0 a\u00f0 gefast upp \u00e1 a\u00f0 h\u00e6tta a\u00f0 reykja … \u00ferisvar.<\/p>\n
N\u00fa, \u00e9g haf\u00f0i samband vi\u00f0 minn g\u00f3\u00f0a l\u00e6kni og ba\u00f0 um r\u00e1\u00f0. Svo byrja\u00f0i \u00e9g upp \u00e1 n\u00fdtt a\u00f0 h\u00e6tta \u00e1 Imovane me\u00f0 h\u00e6gari tr\u00f6ppun og \u00fea\u00f0 gengur pr\u00fd\u00f0ilega e\u00f0a \u00feannig; \u00e9g \u00fearf helst a\u00f0 vera \u00e1 spani allan daginn og \u00e1 b\u00e1gt me\u00f0 a\u00f0 vera kjur en a\u00f0 \u00f6\u00f0ru leyti er \u00feetta svipa\u00f0 og Rivotril-tr\u00f6ppurnar. Sko\u00f0a\u00f0i nokkrar greinar um z-lyfin (zopiklon, Stillnocht o.fl.) og s\u00e1 a\u00f0 n\u00fatildags eru \u00feau talin s\u00edst sk\u00e1rri en benz\u00f3lyf, \u00ed Ashton-benz\u00f3dr\u00ednlyfjafr\u00e6\u00f0um er \u00fev\u00ed meira a\u00f0 segja haldi\u00f0 fram a\u00f0 z-lyf s\u00e9u eitra\u00f0ri en benz\u00f3lyf. L\u00edklega voru \u00fea\u00f0 reginmist\u00f6k a\u00f0 setja upp \u00e1\u00e6tlun um a\u00f0 h\u00e6tta \u00e1 Rivotrili og taka samt\u00edmis svefnlyf – en \u00feau mist\u00f6k eru ger\u00f0 og ekki aftur sn\u00fai\u00f0 me\u00f0 \u00feau – n\u00fa spila \u00e9g \u00far \u00feessu eftir bestu getu og skv. skynsamlegum r\u00e1\u00f0leggingum.<\/p>\n
Svo er \u00e9g b\u00fain a\u00f0 fatta tvennt: Annars vegar a\u00f0 Voltaren-hlaup sl\u00e6r p\u00ednul\u00edti\u00f0 \u00e1 v\u00f6\u00f0vab\u00f3lguna sem fylgir \u00feessari lyfjatr\u00f6ppun og hins vegar a\u00f0 \u00e9g brenni eins og mara\u00feonhlaupari og \u00fearf a\u00f0 passa a\u00f0 bor\u00f0a \u00e1 tveggja t\u00edma fresti, annars lendi \u00e9g \u00ed bl\u00f3\u00f0sykurfalli. Vonandi h\u00e6gir \u00feetta skynsamlega \u00e1tlag l\u00edka \u00e1 k\u00edl\u00f3atapinu sem fylgir lyfjah\u00e6ttingunum.<\/p>\n
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\u00c9g er a\u00f0 lesa yfir eigi\u00f0 blogg fr\u00e1 jan\u00faar 2005 a\u00f0 telja, til a\u00f0 \u00e1tta mig \u00e1 gangi sj\u00fakd\u00f3msins og hvort l\u00e6knisr\u00e1\u00f0 hafi eitthva\u00f0 virka\u00f0. \u00deegar \u00e9g h\u00f3f lesturinn \u00edmynda\u00f0i \u00e9g m\u00e9r a\u00f0 \u00e9g g\u00e6ti lesi\u00f0 \u00feetta eins og hverja a\u00f0ra heimildask\u00e1lds\u00f6gu e\u00f0a heimild; af \u00fev\u00ed \u00e9g man n\u00e1kv\u00e6mlega ekkert fr\u00e1 \u00fev\u00ed \u00e1 mi\u00f0ju \u00e1ri 2004 til s\u00ed\u00f0la \u00e1rs 2007 og minningar s\u00ed\u00f0an \u00fe\u00e1 eru mj\u00f6g brotakenndar taldi \u00e9g a\u00f0 \u00e9g g\u00e6ti einhvern veginn\u00a0n\u00e1lgast \u00feetta efni af\u00a0fjarl\u00e6g\u00f0, eins og \u00e9g v\u00e6ri a\u00f0 lesa um \u00e6vi\u00a0\u00f3kunnrar manneskju. En \u00fev\u00ed er ekki a\u00f0 heilsa.\u00a0M\u00e9r finnst mj\u00f6g erfitt a\u00f0 lesa hugsanir m\u00ednar og um l\u00edf mitt. Kannski er erfi\u00f0ast af \u00f6llu a\u00f0 sj\u00e1 vaxandi \u00f6rv\u00e6ntinguna sem fylgir\u00a0s\u00edauknu \u00feunglyndinu og hvernig \u00e9g og fj\u00f6lskylda m\u00edn h\u00f6fum haldi\u00f0 dau\u00f0ahaldi \u00ed vonina, vonina um a\u00f0 n\u00fa myndi \u00feessi e\u00f0a hinn lyfjakokteillinn virka, vonina um a\u00f0 raflostme\u00f0fer\u00f0in fyrri virka\u00f0i o.s.fr. \u00deessar miklu vonir sem breg\u00f0ast \u00e6 ofan \u00ed \u00e6\u00a0– \u00feessi leit a\u00f0 h\u00e1lmstr\u00e1um,\u00a0bara einu oggolitlu h\u00e1lmstr\u00e1i sem fyndist ef n\u00f3gu vel v\u00e6ri a\u00f0 g\u00e6tt –\u00a0finnst m\u00e9r hr\u00e6\u00f0ilega sorgleg.\u00a0\u00c9g held m\u00e9r myndi finnast\u00a0\u00feetta jafn sorgleg lesning \u00fe\u00f3tt\u00a0\u00e9g vissi ekki a\u00f0 textinn fjalla\u00f0i um mig.<\/p>\n
\u00deegar \u00ed lestrinum var komi\u00f0 haust 2006 var\u00f0\u00a0\u00e9g a\u00f0 leggja fr\u00e1 m\u00e9r bloggi\u00f0 og taka m\u00e9r nokkurra daga p\u00e1su. Um vori\u00f0 2006 f\u00f3r \u00e9g \u00ed raflostame\u00f0fer\u00f0 og\u00a0\u00e9g\u00a0las f\u00e6rslu eftir f\u00e6rslu \u00fear sem kom fram a\u00f0 fj\u00f6lskyldan taldi a\u00f0 m\u00e9r hef\u00f0i batna\u00f0 t\u00f6luvert, a\u00f0 \u00fea\u00f0 v\u00e6ri allt anna\u00f0 upplit \u00e1 m\u00e9r, en \u00ed f\u00e6rslunum\u00a0kemur fram\u00a0samt vel fram vaxandi \u00f6rv\u00e6nting yfir t\u00f3minu\u00a0sem \u00e9g upplifi; gleymi \u00f6llu jafnhar\u00f0an,\u00a0kann ekki\u00a0\u00e1 t\u00f6lvuforrit, get ekki lesi\u00f0,\u00a0heimilisbankinn lokar hva\u00f0 eftir anna\u00f0 a\u00f0gangi m\u00ednum og \u00e9g skrifa ni\u00f0ur lykilor\u00f0 en gleymi jafnhar\u00f0an hvar \u00e9g hef lagt fr\u00e1 m\u00e9r skrifu\u00f0 minnisatri\u00f0i\u00a0… Yfir sumari\u00f0 rennur upp fyrir m\u00e9r a\u00f0 \u00e9g hef gleymt nokkrum\u00a0vikum, svo nokkrum m\u00e1nu\u00f0um og \u00fear sem \u00e9g h\u00e6tti a\u00f0 lesa er m\u00e9r or\u00f0i\u00f0 lj\u00f3st a\u00f0 meir en \u00e1r hefur strokast gersamlega \u00fat \u00far l\u00edfi m\u00ednu: \u00c9g \u00e1 enga minningu\u00a0\u00e1r aftur \u00ed t\u00edmann. Seinna meir \u00e1 \u00e9g eftir a\u00f0 \u00e1tta mig \u00e1 \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 blakk\u00e1ti\u00f0 n\u00e6r tv\u00f6\u00a0og h\u00e1lft \u00e1r aftur \u00ed t\u00edmann en \u00e9g gafst sem sagt upp \u00e1 a\u00f0 lesa\u00a0og pers\u00f3nan sem \u00e9g er a\u00f0 lesa um (\u00e9g sj\u00e1lf) hefur ekki enn \u00e1tta\u00f0 sig \u00e1 \u00fev\u00ed. Og ekki heldur \u00e1tta\u00f0 sig \u00e1 \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 \u00feessar minningar koma aldrei aftur.<\/p>\n
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Fyrir utan fr\u00e1hv\u00f6rf og s\u00e1rsaukafulla fyrsta spors vinnu segi \u00e9g allt f\u00ednt og l\u00ed\u00f0ur me\u00f0 sk\u00e1sta m\u00f3ti, svona mi\u00f0a\u00f0 vi\u00f0 allt og allt. S\u00f3lin: H\u00fan vermir, h\u00fan sk\u00edn og h\u00fdrt gle\u00f0ur mann, eins og segir \u00ed kv\u00e6\u00f0inu. Og Langisandur\u00a0hefur sjaldan veri\u00f0 eins langur, eins gylltur og eins \u00feakinn b\u00f6rnum a\u00f0 leik og s\u00ed\u00f0ustu daga.\u00a0\u00deetta er ekki ve\u00f0ur til a\u00f0 blogga \ud83d\ude42<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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