{"id":466,"date":"2012-11-23T18:13:29","date_gmt":"2012-11-23T18:13:29","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.harpahreins.com\/blogg\/2012\/11\/23\/hrakspa-sem-ekki-gengur-eftir\/"},"modified":"2013-11-21T09:01:09","modified_gmt":"2013-11-21T09:01:09","slug":"hrakspa-sem-ekki-gengur-eftir","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/harpahreins.com\/blogg\/2012\/11\/23\/hrakspa-sem-ekki-gengur-eftir\/","title":{"rendered":"Hraksp\u00e1 sem ekki gengur eftir"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"Erkit\u00fdpa\u00cd morgun f\u00f3r \u00e9g og tala\u00f0i vi\u00f0 r\u00e1\u00f0gjafa hj\u00e1 VIRK<\/a>. \u00c9g fr\u00e9tti af \u00feessu fyrirb\u00e6ri um daginn, heyr\u00f0i fyrir tilviljun minnst \u00e1 Starfsendurh\u00e6fingarsj\u00f3\u00f0 \u00ed \u00fatvarpsvi\u00f0tali, f\u00f3r a\u00f0 g\u00faggla og fann VIRK. \u00deetta var f\u00ednt vi\u00f0tal og \u00e9g var \u00e1n\u00e6g\u00f0 a\u00f0 heyra af kostunum sem m\u00e9r bj\u00f3\u00f0ast hj\u00e1 VIRK. \u00c9g hef nefnilega sett m\u00e9r \u00fea\u00f0 markmi\u00f0 a\u00f0\u00a0losa um\u00a0\u00f6rorkuhelsi\u00f0 og gerast a\u00f0 einhverju leyti n\u00fdtur \u00fej\u00f3\u00f0f\u00e9lags\u00feegn enda finnst m\u00e9r \u00e9g hafa heilsu til \u00feess.<\/p>\n

\u00cd h\u00e1deginu las \u00e9g yfir vottor\u00f0 sem ge\u00f0l\u00e6knirinn minn gaf \u00fat daginn \u00e1\u00f0ur en hann d\u00f6mpa\u00f0i m\u00e9r. (Sj\u00e1 Ge\u00f0l\u00e6knir d\u00f6mpar sj\u00faklingi vegna bloggs<\/a>.) Haf\u00f0i n\u00fa reyndar lesi\u00f0 \u00feetta \u00e1\u00f0ur en \u00feurfti a\u00f0 g\u00e1 a\u00f0 \u00e1kve\u00f0num uppl\u00fdsingum … las fyrir manninn klausuna um \u00e1lit l\u00e6knisins \u00e1 m\u00ednu heilsufari, a\u00f0 \u00fats\u00e9\u00f0 s\u00e9 a\u00f0 \u00e9g geti sn\u00fai\u00f0 aftur til starfa \u00e1 \u00feessum vetri til kennslu og \u00f3l\u00edklegt a\u00f0 svo geti or\u00f0i\u00f0 \u00e1 n\u00e6sta \u00e1ri … og haf\u00f0i \u00e1 or\u00f0i vi\u00f0 manninn a\u00f0 \u00feetta v\u00e6ri afar sv\u00f6rt sp\u00e1 (h\u00fan minnir mig d\u00e1l\u00edti\u00f0 \u00e1 kollega minn for\u00f0um sem stagla\u00f0ist \u00e6 oftar \u00e1 hendingunum “\u00dea\u00f0 bjargast ekki neitt\/ \u00fea\u00f0 ferst, \u00fea\u00f0 ferst …” \u00feegar l\u00ed\u00f0a t\u00f3k \u00e1 annirnar). Ma\u00f0urinn sag\u00f0i a\u00f0 brag\u00f0i: Vi\u00f0 hverju b\u00fdstu? Hann getur n\u00e1tt\u00farlega ekki vi\u00f0urkennt a\u00f0 \u00fe\u00e9r hafi \u00fe\u00e1 fyrst fari\u00f0 a\u00f0 batna \u00feegar \u00fe\u00fa \u00e1kva\u00f0st a\u00f0 h\u00e6tta a\u00f0 taka lyfin sem hann hefur d\u00e6lt \u00ed \u00feig! Hm … \u00e9g \u00e6tla a\u00f0 \u00edgrunda \u00feetta.<\/p>\n

En au\u00f0vita\u00f0 er \u00fea\u00f0 ekki svo einfalt a\u00f0 m\u00e9r hafi fari\u00f0 a\u00f0 batna einfaldlega vi\u00f0 a\u00f0 \u00e1kve\u00f0a a\u00f0 h\u00e6tta a\u00f0 taka lyf. Fyrir svo utan \u00fea\u00f0 a\u00f0 \u00e9g er alls ekki h\u00e6tt a\u00f0 taka lyf, \u00e1 eftir s\u00ed\u00f0ustu fl\u00edsina af Rivotrili, ca. 6 mg, og \u00e6tla ekki a\u00f0 hr\u00f3fla vi\u00f0 M\u00edron fyrr en \u00ed l\u00fash\u00e6gri ni\u00f0urtr\u00f6ppun svona \u00ed apr\u00edl, eftir a\u00f0 hafa lesi\u00f0 “case study” grein um sj\u00fakling sem sn\u00f6ggh\u00e6tti a\u00f0 taka M\u00edron\u00a0 M\u00e9r f\u00f3r a\u00f0 batna \u00feegar \u00e9g \u00e1tta\u00f0i mig \u00e1 \u00fev\u00ed a\u00f0 \u00fe\u00e6r hef\u00f0bundnu ge\u00f0l\u00e6knisa\u00f0fer\u00f0ir sem beitt haf\u00f0i veri\u00f0 \u00e1 mig h\u00f6f\u00f0u ekki skila\u00f0 neinum \u00e1rangri og l\u00edklega oft veri\u00f0 til hins verra. M\u00e9r f\u00f3r a\u00f0 batna \u00feegar \u00e9g s\u00e1 a\u00f0 ef \u00e9g t\u00e6ki ekki m\u00edn m\u00e1l \u00ed eigin hendur myndi m\u00e9r aldrei batna. M\u00e9r f\u00f3r a\u00f0 batna \u00feegar \u00e9g \u00e1kva\u00f0 a\u00f0 nota “kukl-a\u00f0fer\u00f0ir” \u00e1 bor\u00f0 vi\u00f0 s\u00e1lfr\u00e6\u00f0ia\u00f0sto\u00f0 (svolei\u00f0is a\u00f0sto\u00f0 er ekki greidd af heilbrig\u00f0iskerfinu svo kerfi\u00f0 vir\u00f0ist ekki vi\u00f0urkenna hana, \u00fe\u00f3 stundum s\u00e9 \u00ed or\u00f0i en \u00f6rugglega ekki \u00e1 bor\u00f0i),\u00a0sumt \u00far a\u00f0fer\u00f0um AA\u00a0og loks a\u00f0 afla m\u00e9r \u00feekkingar \u00e1 hversu haldb\u00e6r v\u00edsindaleg r\u00f6k l\u00e6gju a\u00f0 baki lyfjasulli vi\u00f0 \u00feunglyndi.<\/p>\n

\u00dea\u00f0 er ekki einfalt m\u00e1l a\u00f0 k\u00favenda eigin sko\u00f0unum og horfast \u00ed augu vi\u00f0 heila\u00fevott og eigin ford\u00f3ma. En \u00fea\u00f0 er h\u00e6gt. \u00deetta gengur, h\u00e6gt og b\u00edtandi.<\/p>\n

\u00dea\u00f0 sem m\u00e9r veitist erfi\u00f0ast er a\u00f0 sko\u00f0a eigin sj\u00fakras\u00f6gu. \u00c9g ver\u00f0 rei\u00f0, bitur og sorgm\u00e6dd. \u00deess vegna sko\u00f0a \u00e9g hana \u00ed sm\u00e1sk\u00f6mmtum og l\u00e6t l\u00ed\u00f0a t\u00edma \u00e1 milli. Sem stendur er \u00e9g a\u00f0 sko\u00f0a \u00e1hrif tveggja raflostsme\u00f0fer\u00f0a (rafl\u00e6kninga), eftirk\u00f6st \u00feeirra og lyfjagj\u00f6fina \u00e1 undan og eftir. S\u00e1 b\u00fatur er hryllingssaga, a\u00f0 m\u00ednu mati. En \u00e9g \u00e1l\u00edt a\u00f0 til \u00feess a\u00f0 \u00f6\u00f0last frelsi fr\u00e1 \u00fev\u00ed sem \u00e9g hef reynt \u00feurfi \u00e9g a\u00f0 sko\u00f0a \u00feetta, n\u00e1 einhvers konar fjarl\u00e6g\u00f0 fr\u00e1 vi\u00f0fangsefninu (\u00e6\u00f0ruleysi v\u00e6ntanlega) og losna vi\u00f0 rei\u00f0i, bitur\u00f0 og sorg. \u00de\u00e1 hef \u00e9g traustan grunn til a\u00f0 byggja \u00e1. \u00deetta er \u00ed meginatri\u00f0um l\u00edkt og fyrstaspors vinna \u00ed AA fr\u00e6\u00f0um.<\/p>\n

\u00dea\u00f0 er minna m\u00e1l a\u00f0 gera \u00fe\u00e1 litlu en mikilv\u00e6gu hluti sem skipta m\u00e1li dagsdaglega, eins og a\u00f0 fara \u00f6rugglega \u00ed labbit\u00far (ef hreyfing skyldi virka \u00e1 \u00feunglyndi), a\u00f0 leggja sig ekki \u00e1 daginn (\u00e9g er a\u00f0 l\u00e6ra a\u00f0 sofa upp \u00e1 n\u00fdtt, eftir \u00e1ralanga notkun Rivotrils og langvarandi notkun svefnlyfs … er a\u00f0 ver\u00f0a fullnuma \u00ed \u00feeirri list), a\u00f0 hafa hugsanavillur \u00ed huga og lei\u00f0r\u00e9tta hugsanaskekkjur, a\u00f0 hafa sem mest fyrir stafni o.s.fr.<\/p>\n

\u00dea\u00f0 er n\u00e1kv\u00e6mlega ekkert m\u00e1l a\u00f0 setja sig inn \u00ed grundv\u00f6ll lyfl\u00e6kninga \u00ed ge\u00f0l\u00e6kningum, ekki heldur lostin. Me\u00f0 landsa\u00f0gangi opna\u00f0ist grei\u00f0 lei\u00f0 a\u00f0 s\u00f6mu l\u00e6knat\u00edmaritum og l\u00e6knarnir lesa (\u00feetta er nokku\u00f0 sem \u00e9g held a\u00f0 l\u00e6knar \u00e1tti sig alls ekki \u00e1) og kunni ma\u00f0ur \u00e1 anna\u00f0 bor\u00f0 a\u00f0 greina milli fr\u00e6\u00f0ilegs efnis og g\u00fagulsl\u00fa\u00f0urs tekur ekki langan t\u00edma a\u00f0 \u00e1tta sig sig \u00e1 “fr\u00e6\u00f0asvi\u00f0inu”. Raunar var \u00e9g b\u00fain a\u00f0 fatta talsver\u00f0u \u00e1\u00f0ur hvernig best v\u00e6ri a\u00f0 sigta \u00fat vi\u00f0urkennd fr\u00e6\u00f0i og hismi\u00f0 og hvernig borgar sig \u00e6vinlega a\u00f0 g\u00e1 a\u00f0 tengslum h\u00f6funda greina og ranns\u00f3knarsk\u00fdrsla vi\u00f0 lyfjafyrirt\u00e6ki og framlei\u00f0endur rafmagnsgr\u00e6ja \u00e6tlu\u00f0um \u00feunglyndum. Til h\u00e6g\u00f0arauka \u00feunglyndissj\u00faklingi sem vill setja sig inn \u00ed eigin sj\u00fakd\u00f3m og vestr\u00e6nar l\u00e6knisa\u00f0ger\u00f0ir vi\u00f0 honum eru margar b\u00e6kur sem komi\u00f0 hafa \u00fat um efni\u00f0 \u00ed seinni t\u00ed\u00f0.<\/p>\n

\u00dea\u00f0 skiptir mig engu m\u00e1li \u00fe\u00f3tt s\u00ed\u00f0asta vottor\u00f0 ge\u00f0l\u00e6knisins m\u00edns til t\u00f3lf \u00e1ra feli \u00ed s\u00e9r svartn\u00e6ttissp\u00e1 fyrir sj\u00faklinginn mig. \u00dea\u00f0 skiptir mig \u00f6llu m\u00e1li a\u00f0 \u00e9g hef \u00ed \u00e1rara\u00f0ir ekki veri\u00f0 jafnfr\u00edsk \u00e1 \u00feessum \u00e1rst\u00edma og n\u00fa. \u00de\u00f3tt n\u00edstandi t\u00f3mleikakenndin b\u00e6ri \u00e1 s\u00e9r suma daga, me\u00f0 tilheyrandi jafnv\u00e6gistruflunum, hefur m\u00e9r til \u00feessa tekist a\u00f0 vinna \u00e1 henni og hver minn dagur s\u00ed\u00f0an \u00ed apr\u00edlbyrjun hefur veri\u00f0 g\u00f3\u00f0ur, kannski misg\u00f3\u00f0ir dagar en lj\u00f3s\u00e1rum fr\u00e1 svartn\u00e6ttinu sem umlukti mig \u00ed 22 m\u00e1nu\u00f0i \u00e1 undan. Af \u00fev\u00ed komin er \u00feetta l\u00f6ng reynsla og \u00feetta langur g\u00f3\u00f0ur t\u00edmi finnst m\u00e9r a\u00f0 draga megi \u00fe\u00e1 \u00e1lyktun a\u00f0 \u00e9g geti vi\u00f0haldi\u00f0 \u00feessum bata me\u00f0 a\u00f0fer\u00f0unum sem \u00e9g l\u00fdsti h\u00e9r \u00e1 undan.<\/p>\n

Og af \u00fev\u00ed \u00e9g er n\u00fdb\u00fain a\u00f0 spjalla \u00e1 kaffih\u00fasi um sj\u00faklingav\u00e6\u00f0inguna miklu skreytir \u00feessa f\u00e6rslu n\u00e6stvins\u00e6lasta g\u00fagulmyndin af “depression”: Erkit\u00fdpa \u00feunglyndissj\u00faklings, sem er hn\u00edpin kona, sorgm\u00e6dd, \u00fereytt, gr\u00e1tandi … og sj\u00e1lfsagt rosalega \u00fe\u00e6g. \u00c9g er ekki svona og \u00e6tla ekki a\u00f0 vera \u00fea\u00f0<\/strong>. Enda s\u00f6kka erkit\u00fdpur!<\/p>\n

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\u00cd morgun f\u00f3r \u00e9g og tala\u00f0i vi\u00f0 r\u00e1\u00f0gjafa hj\u00e1 VIRK. \u00c9g fr\u00e9tti af \u00feessu fyrirb\u00e6ri um daginn, heyr\u00f0i fyrir tilviljun minnst \u00e1 Starfsendurh\u00e6fingarsj\u00f3\u00f0 \u00ed \u00fatvarpsvi\u00f0tali, f\u00f3r a\u00f0 g\u00faggla og fann VIRK. \u00deetta var f\u00ednt vi\u00f0tal …<\/span> Read More …<\/span><\/a><\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"nf_dc_page":"","_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[25],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-466","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-thunglyndid"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/harpahreins.com\/blogg\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/466","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/harpahreins.com\/blogg\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/harpahreins.com\/blogg\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/harpahreins.com\/blogg\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/harpahreins.com\/blogg\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=466"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/harpahreins.com\/blogg\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/466\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":619,"href":"https:\/\/harpahreins.com\/blogg\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/466\/revisions\/619"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/harpahreins.com\/blogg\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=466"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/harpahreins.com\/blogg\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=466"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/harpahreins.com\/blogg\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=466"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}